nothing much

Really hard to title these things lately as most of what I have to write about is random and not to interesting anymore. We are still hoping to enter the half ass contest but I still have a few cane marks left from a rather intense caning for smoking awhile back. They are almost gone but I teased Thomas about how they are never going to go away. I guess it didn't help that my attitude and things lately haven't been the greatest and I received a dose of the bath brush last night. He was going to use the hairbrush but since the move finding that became a bit of a challenge so he used what was available though I really wish I knew where the hairbrush was as that isn't as bad as the bath brush. I had a few issues regarding procrastination and attitude that he dealt with. Although some of that can be contributed to the time of the month. And the added stresses in the household as well. I am working on getting my daughter in a program that will benefit her and the baby greatly. Shes excited about it but I am not to sure how long she will make it through the program as I know her history with following rules. And since it is a residental program there are some rules. I am hoping though that she realizes her situation and the need for the program that would help her get her education and and a career and help her and the baby on the right foot through completion of the two year program. Its two hours away so Since two of my children will now be both two hours away ion different directions it could mean alot of time traveling. But I know in the long run it is something that will help her alot. I just wish there was one closer. There is a maternity home closer but there program didn't seem as beneficial as the one we are looking into and I want to know that she will benefit from it rather then just slide through till she has the baby. and this particular one we found is a program that takes them through till the babies second birthday and provides them with career training and childcare as well as a car and some starting money when they leave the program and parenting and character classes as well as life skills she needs as well. It is a hard decision since I just recently got the chance to have her but in the long run it is best for her as I cant teach her those things or provide the same training.
I am Still considering my options for Texas Allstate as well. My friend that owns the house we live in has said that she would watch the children for us. Though It might not be that easy since we live separate now and her children attend different schools. But we will see it might just be a day or two we have to worry about school but she also works third shift so I am not to comfortable with them being home all night. I dont know yet but I am looking into the possibilities. Thomas might car pool with someone but it is in the air as to how we will get there or how long we will stay. They are talking about staying a week and site seeing and I doubt I can do that so I might just fly and have someone pick me up at the airports if I go. We also have to figure out if I will have enough money for the trip. There is the cost of getting there as well as where we will be staying once we are there and food and things while we are there. Not so sure it is possible at the time but still hopeful for a windfall or something. Winning the lottery would be a good thing anytime soon lol. Well I have to go and get ready for work. The weekends suck now as I work at night and on Saturday Thomas works day so we really dont see each other and recently our time has been really limited to sleeping anymore. I just get the feeling that we are getting lost in the shuffle and losing connection with each other. Maybe we really need to set a time to have some play real soon.

ramblings

I haven't had a whole lot of time to get online recently for this blog. I have been online but researching information for some issues that we face with this house and my friend. No our issues aren't emotional issues and our friendship isn't on the line in any way. Apparently there is alot of unethical and illegal issues as to this other friend that she befriended a few years before who basically has been scamming her for some time now involving things with this house and a few other places including the house we just shared with her before moving here. I helped my friend look up some things and we found quite alot of things that aren't all answered yet but it is very noticeable just in a few things that were said and found that she has been scammed and will probably lose this house if we dont get some legal help real soon. In the process though she has also lost alot of money and time and trust I would say. My friend is a very sweet person who believes like I once did that there is good in everyone and trust way to easy therefore getting taken advantage of and hurt. I feel horrible for her and care deeply for her. She took in Thomas and I and the kids a few months back when we really had been friends for a few weeks prior. Not the wisest choice on her part as far as trusting people although that trust was never broken and we became real close in the process. She currently also received some bad news about her 12 year old who has broken four or five bones in the last year including her growth plate in her foot which the child didn't even know how she broke it. It turns out that she has a bone disease and her bones could break just from walking the wrong way or any kind of fall or anything. Times are tough but news like that on top of finding out that someone you know and trusted has been taking your money and using you to the point that you are going to lose your house and credit and all that as well as being a struggling single mother and all its alot to deal with. I feel for her so much and just want to make it all go away for her. Thing is I am not that knowledgeable in these things and dont have a whole lot of answers as to what can and cant be done about it. I can only be there to help her research things and possibly help her save the house and hire a lawyer since we of course are living in the house. Though she was currently still giving money to this lady to help with the house but in talking to her and the bank and the mortgage company it appears that none of the money has gone towards the house and hasn't for a long time. And unfortunately My friend is not the only one she has done this too and has been arrested for the same thing before so the odds are that once we get all the records and the information and the papers together and go to a lawyer and get things in order that maybe there is some hope that the house can be saved and this women will be prosecuted. SO alot of my time and hers is being taken to find out all the information and talk to a few others and get this thing taken care of and see where we stand as far as having a house to call home. Not only because my kids and I now live here if she decided to live here or even not I would still help her the best I could because I hate seeing innocent people taken advantage of and she doesn't deserve to lose so much for trusting someone. It really irks me and gets to me. Specially when she comes into work and breaks down crying because she has so much on her plate and this women keeps harassing her as well as me. Though I am a bit stronger in that area. I dont really let her threats and things get to me because I know in the end she will get hers and I refuse to give her any of my money since I already see she is a scam and have heard from others as well. But the truth is starting to come out and her lies and deception will quickly get the best of her and she will be the one losing in the end. Maybe not in our case the only thing we might be able to do is save the house and take the loss from before when she was involved but it will catch up to her when more and more people start realizing how she screwed them into losing there houses and things. I often wonder how people can have the hearts to do those kinds of things and not care about the lives they ruin and the hurt they cost. Money must make you do terrible things. Which is why I personally wouldn't want to have a whole lot of money. I guess that is why they saying money is at the root of all evil. I believe that to be true. Anyways as far as spanking and things it doesn't look like I will be able to attend the Allstate party like I wanted to I dont know yet. There are issues as far as money is concerned as well as a caregiver for the children while we are away since we cant trust the oldest alone even for a few minutes and there doesn't seem to be any answer to that right now besides one of us staying and I couldn't ask Thomas to give that up since he has had to give up so much already. I would love to attend with him and if we can work it out somehow I will if not then I will just have to wait till the next one and hope I can make that. Issues with her and the others and just our family in general are also on our plate as well. Lots of hard decisions to make that any of the outcomes could hurt one or more of the people involved. There are so many hard choices in life. In a perfect world though I would be able to make all the right choices and never have any bad come out of them but that just inst the case for anyone. I could really use a stress releasing spanking at the moment but even then since it would have to be one that was long and pretty intense the chances that we could pull one off anytime soon are slim. I missed him so much over the weekend and he was only gone for two days really. It just seems like in the commotion of the daily everyday grind we just exist together and have little time for connection and things. I miss him daily and he is right here. I think we really could benefit from a chance to get away even if it is to a party where we pretty much would be separate most of the time but it would get the daily stress gone and a chance to refresh. life is just so complicated and trying I often wonder what the hell the purpose is in it all. Sorry about the blog and things being so neglected it is just that life comes first and while spanking is a part of my life it isn't the only part and doesn't take priority for me. Ill keep everyone informed though if something should give and I might have some good news either vanilla wise or spanking to report. Right now I have to go to the school and talk to a lawyer and get some groceries. Hope everyone is having a good day though.

Moody

Things have been keeping me pretty busy lately with setting the new house up and getting kids enrolled in their new schools and such and getting my old job back. Glad for that as I really miss working. With that being said I am kind of in a rare type mood. I am in one of my moods where I dont really feel like being around people or being touched and all that jazz. I dont know why I get in those moods but I just feel out of whack and get that feeling of wanting to be alone and left alone. Of course living with a Dom doesn't really work in those times and I have shown a bit of attitude and just uncooperative in general. I just feel a little less then submissive at the time and feel testy. I wonder why I am like that. Things like obedience and all that at these times just make me want to not do anything and fight rather then submit and be happy. Hopefully I get back in my regular mood soon. I did receive a caning or two but really I couldn't tell you anything about it I was too moody and still am. Not alot to write otherwise things are going alright otherwise if I could just get out of this mood then Ill be so much better. We need to work on the contest and the cookie challenge and hopefully figure out how and what way we are getting to Texas this year as well as hopefully go and see Our friends at SOS I miss the host and everyone since its been a long time since we were last there almost a year top be exact.

Half A.S.S spanking contest

Todd and Suzy fom A.S.S. has started another contest. Thomas and I ended up winning the hand print contest and are looking forward to our new hand paddle from rosy bottoms. The new contest has a prize that comes from Lee at Paddle Masters. As most of you know I speak highly of all his products and have a few of his products in my collection. My favorite of course is my purple Cookie paddle. It was personalized just for me and I love it very much. I think for the contest it would be beneficial to actually use that paddle as our implement lol. Can't go wrong with a Paddle Masters paddle that's for sure. They do leave a nice redness and an oh so good sting that I love. It will be quite fun if anything. I copied a part of Todd and Suzy's blog A.S.S. that details the contest for anyone that wants to enter it.



"The ‘Half A.S.S. Spanking’ contest is simple. As you might be able to guess, the idea is to get the best possible picture of a ”half spanking” that you can. That is… just one spanked cheek.

Doesn’t matter which side you pick to spank… right or left cheek. Your goal is to get one cheek as pink or red as possible, while leaving the other cheek completely pristine. The standard is an even and pleasant shade of obviously spanked bottom skin. Points off for any bruising on the spanked cheek or any marks whatsoever on the unspanked cheek or the thighs. Please, no photoshopping… and the photo does need to be yours and it needs to be original.

You can spank with whatever you like… hand, paddle, belt, hairbrush, etc-etc. Just get the best possible half A.S.S. spanking… take a picture of the entire bottom… and Email it to us at ToddnSuzy@yahoo.com."



So lets have some fun and get some great half ass spankings in. Take a look at the Paddle Masters site as well. And visit Todd and Suzy's blog A.S.S. for all the juicy details and things. The winner gets their choice of any one of Lee's paddles and he is even adding the vinyl lettering for the winner as well. Good luck and have fun I know Thomas and I will have lots of fun with this one *giggles*.

The neighbors saw

This is a poem that was posted in a yahoo group I am in. It originally came from fetlife apparently and I do not know who trinity is but I really liked the poem as many others did and re-posted elsewhere. I wanted to share it here as well. It does have a good description about how things aren't always as they seem. Hope you enjoy it as well. Id like to know if anyone knows the author though. If she is a blogger as well Id love to also add a link to credit her for the poem and hope to read more if she has any. Hope you enjoy as well.

The Neighbors Saw…by trinity
The neighbors saw it was a wicked storm outside with heavy rain, thunder and lightning so they looked out the window.
The neighbors saw him drag her outside to the backyard by her hair.
The neighbors saw that she was only wearing a black collar, a short white silk negligee and her hands were cuffed behind her back.
The neighbors saw him throw her to the ground face down.
The neighbors saw him grab her hips so that her naked ass was in the air.
The neighbors saw him slap her bare ass every time thunder struck for a good while.
The neighbors heard her screaming each time he slapped her ass.
The neighbors saw her body flinch each time he slapped her ass.
The neighbors saw him finger her ass between slaps.
The neighbors saw him expose his rampant cock.
The neighbors saw him pull her hair and begin to fuck her slowly.
The neighbors heard her moan and briefly could see her eyes rolled up in her head.
The neighbors saw him grab her with both hands by her hair and her face and fuck her harder and more dominantly.
The neighbors heard her screaming as he continued to rape her ass as if no one was watching.
The neighbors heard him call her his "whore," "slut," "fuckslave," and "fuckmeat" loudly as the ordeal went on and on.
The neighbors saw him fuck her hard and continue to slap her ass
The neighbors saw him continue to pull her hair as he did so.
The neighbors saw him bite her back more than once like he was an animal while he did so.
The neighbors saw him shove her face into the ground as he fucked her hard and brutally.
The neighbors heard him let out an orgasmic howl as she continued to moan and suffer.
The neighbors saw him stop fucking her finally.
The neighbors saw him lean over her back for a long while and couldn't tell what was going on.
The neighbors saw him stand up above her eventually.
The neighbors saw him help her stand up and then he picked her up and carried her into the house.
The neighbors thought they had just witnessed something very cold and brutal and a crime.
The neighbors didn't see that weeks beforehand him and her had talked about role-playing a rape fantasy, especially during a wicked thunderstorm.
The neighbors didn't hear the agreement of the woman's safe word she could use if she wanted the act to stop.
The neighbors didn't see her willingly put on the collar beforehand.
The neighbors didn't see her willingly bring him the set of hand cuffs beforehand.
The neighbors didn't see the look of "take me" that she gave him before he grabbed her by the hair and drug her outside in the storm.
The neighbors didn't see that after he raped her that the reason he leaned over her was to help her cum with his fingers in her pussy.
The neighbors didn't hear her gratitude to him after she had one of the most intense orgasms of her life.
The neighbors didn't see that after he carried her back into the house that he took the cuffs off of her and kissed her wrists gently.
The neighbors didn't see that he then drew a hot bath for the both of them.
The neighbors didn't see him help her into the tub.
The neighbors didn't see him pour them each a glass of wine and get them a little snack to serve before he joined her in the tub.
The neighbors didn't see how he cared for her afterwards both physically by helping her remove the dirt from her body from being on the ground and emotionally by telling her how he loved her and how he enjoyed her open-mindedness and role-playing.
The neighbors didn't see her accept this appreciation and again thank him for helping her release herself and also please and love him enough to do so.
The neighbors didn't see them towel each other off carefully and seductively after.
The neighbors didn't see him kiss her deeply and passionately like it was the first time he had ever kissed her.
The neighbors didn't see them fall asleep holding each other in their arms.
Things aren't always what they seem.

Thanks trinity!!! For both a wonderful poem and a great scene description lol wish that were me *giggles*

random acts of kindness

The way the world is today it is hard to remember that there is good in some people. Today that goodness was shown to me through a complete stranger. A few days ago the kids and I were at the grocery store and there was a family there with some small children. The man had stopped me and told me that they had ran out of gas and didn't have enough to get them home where he had left his wallet. I didn't have a whole lot of money but I did give them 5 dollars and asked if that would help them any. He thanked me and took his family to the gas station nearby. We left and the kids asked me about it. I had told them that i have been in similar situations and I felt bad. They then said how do you know he isn't going to use that money for drugs or something. I told them I dont know but I did it because I know the feeling when you are in that situation and for the most part things like that come back to you as well. Today that 5 dollars and then some came back to me when I took my 15 year old to school and stopped at the 7-11 to get some gas. With the move and my not working things have been tight we were on empty and I had scrounged up about 6 dollars in change to get gas till Friday. I paid for the gas with the change then left to pump my gas. As I was pumping another customer who had been inside came out and said after you pump that hang it up so I can fill your tank for you. I didn't know her and had no clue why she offered other then she saw me pay with change. I asked her why at first just because the whole thing took me by surprise and she replied "Just a random act of kindness". I thanked her and hung up the pump. She swiped her card and told me to fill the tank. She then got the receipt and left. I ended up thanking her a few times though before she left. My daughter was in the car and asked who that was and what they wanted and wondered how I was getting the gas as she saw it go beyond the 6 we paid. I told her what the lady said and she was surprised as well. She thanked the lady as well and we headed to her school. I told her during the ride that things come back to people. Reminded her of the 5 I had given to that family they thought was odd. A good lesson for the kids in kindness though and it really did help me as we were really hoping that 6 would last till he got paid. Now we have a full tank which will make it till we put gas in it again. It just goes to show that even in the world today as bad as it gets sometimes there still are good people that have genuine kindness and caring for others even if they do not know them. It kind of reminds me of a movie the kids and I liked to watch alot. It was called "pay it forward". Though I really didn't like the way it ended as the little boy ended up getting killed, it does have a good moral beyond the whole pay it forward thing. We are still getting settled in though some things have come up recently with the friends mortgage that might change us living here. Hopefully that will get worked out though because the stated change was alot more then either she or us expected and there is no way that we could afford that at this point. 3,000 is alot to pay a month for a house although it is a nice house we just cant do it I doubt we even make that much a month. Well I am off the kids are on their ways home and I have to get dinner yet. Soon we should be starting the challenge if all goes well with. I entered a contest for PCH maybe Ill get lucky and actually win the 5000 a week for life. Wouldnt that be a lovely thing.

settling in

Things are still pretty hectic with the new move. We have everything moved in basically and are working on setting up the house. Lots to do and we should be getting internet nest month once we get things together. That will be the last thing and cable we worry about though since it isn’t a necessity for say. I start back to work on Thursday Ill be glad for that as I hate not working it drives me crazy plus with the new house there are lots of things that we need and it takes money to get lol. Ill be going tomorrow to get our refig hopefully if everything goes as it should. We are able to get some internet with the wireless adapter but that is limited and getting a signal is hard some times. Lucky though we can pick up one or two signals now and then to check in and check our email and things. Soon we will have it where we will be totally connected here and won’t have tow worry about the signal thing. Just wanted to check in quick and say things are going well so far. Still have a problem with the oldest but it was expected though I had thought some of it would have settled since she was now with us but doesn’t seem to be that way. She’s just so against authority of any kind it makes for a difficult transition. She started school though and hopefully that will keep her occupied some more and less bored and home sick. The other kids are still doing well and love their new house. I cant wait till we get to buy the house and it can actually be ours even though it technically is now we just pay the mortgage for my friend at the moment. Got to run I’m busy busy busy with unpacking and setting the house up. And running the kids to schools and such. Ill be checking in with some updates real soon though. Unforunatly though Thomas and I have had to much to do and have been to busy with the family and kids and the move there hasn’t been any kind of play or even any time to spend with each other then going to bed at night. Which by the time we get there we are tired and both go right to sleep. We are further away from his work now and we have to get up earlier to get the kids to school and Thomas to work. Still have to figure out how we are going to work the car situation when I have to be at work at 7 in the morning. We can only take it a day at a time though the main thing is that I am back to work though.

New Blog

I have decided to start a family friendly blog for really the sole purpose of advertising and getting paid from a few sites that pay you to blog. I will see how it goes. As it stands though the places that pay you to advertise do not allow adult oriented blogs so I have to start a new blog that is family friendly lol. On this one Ill be able to post family pictures and things so I really cant link it here. It should keep me busy though trying to keep up with more then one blog. I also have a few other leads from a friend as to work at home jobs that I might be able to do. This New Year starts us with a great opportunity to finally have a stable and nice place to raise our children. However like everything else it will require money so anything that I can do to help add to our income will greatly help. Being given a house where all you have to do is take over the payments and things isn't something that just happens everyday. I really love this house and after getting most of it cleaned today I am anxious for the move in. I swore before that I would never live with another man. But that was because I never meet anyone quite like Thomas or felt the way I have with him. We have gone through alot of changes but I really believe that things will work out for the good with this move. I will be doing everything I can to make this house our home for a long time. For a few of my readers that I am friends with and know I will give the link to the new blog which will be more of my life and the kids then this one would be. Ill be able to keep this blog alot more spanko related as the new blog will give me another avenue for venting and things. Well I have alot to do so Ill be heading to get things done. No spankings to report as Thomas wasn't home and I had the bed to myself. Im sure though once we get set up in the new house and all there will be alot more spankings going on. The garage is on the other side of the house and even standing in the kitchen in an empty house I couldn't hear my daughter yelling at me from the back room so I know that they wouldn't hear anything going on in the garage after they are in bed. *smiles*

Moving Day

Today is our moving day. I will be very busy today trying to get the house cleaned up enough that we can get our stuff moved tonight when Thomas gets off of work. The house was in pretty bad shape and there is a whole lot that needs to be done to get it in a livable condition. The people who lived there before were very nasty and moved out months ago so there is thrash everywhere and its just a nasty mess. Last night the girls and I went to get the bathroom and the kitchen cleaned at least but the two hours we were there didn't put alot of a dent in anything because it was so nasty. We also have to figure out where we can take all the thrash since it is a whole lot of it and most of it has been there for awhile. Really gross I can't believe that some people can even live like that or leave a place of residence in that shape. But once we get it fixed up and cleaned it is a very nice house. Our current roommate owns the house and we are getting the option to buy it later once we get it fixed up and things. So we are really hoping that this will be our final move for a long time. It is in a very good area and the schools are good schools. There is even a rec center in the development that has after school care and summer care for the boys. As far as spanking goes the other day I had had a pack of cigarettes I had purchased when things got kind of rough just so I could smoke one to take the edge off. I actually had forgotten about it and Thomas found it. So I received a caning for the Three that were missing as well as had to crush the remaining seventeen in front of him. When he canes me for issues such as the smoking he doesn't hold back at all so the six strokes I received were pretty hard and did leave a few cane marks. I was able to get an Anica rub last night though and I was in a playful mood. Thomas has been busy working on something on the computer for the last couple of nights and I was feeling frisky so I laid in the bed and threw paper at him while he was on the computer. We played that way with some playful swats now and then and ended up having a great deal of fun by the time I got tired enough to sleep. Even as I was sore from the caning the playful swats were hurting more but it was still all in good fun. I cant wait to get settled and things and hopefully get a few more videos in and be able to start saving again so we can attend some parties. Well I am off to get the house in order and this will probably be my last post for a little while since we haven't gotten internet set up in the new house yet. Hopefully soon that will be taken care of. and Ill be back and I am hoping Ill be back with some nice spanking stories to report. Take care and Happy spanking.

Moving sucks

Well we got through last year. And I am hoping for a much better year this year. We are hoping to move on Tuesday into a four bedroom house of our own. The rent is affordable if I get my job back this week. If not then we will have to scrimp quite a bit until I am able to find another job. The New Year wasn't spent with spanking fireworks like it was last year. Although that morning he did wake me up with some spanks for a comment I left on his blog so I got my first official spanking of the New Year that morning at least. I will be very busy here in the next couple of days and the Internet situation will again be scarce as we are making the move and transition to our new place. Lots to do as we need to get a refrig and some other things and clean the house as well. The last tenants left quite alot of junk in there and I told them that we would clean the house. It is a friends house and she told me that if we like it and stay there a few years then we could buy the house. The kids are excited about having a pool though I am a little scared about that. I never owned a pool and I am sure that it is alot of work. Though I dont think we are going to do anything with the pool right away anyhow. I want to see how things go first before we jump into that responsibility. I was hoping that we would finally get a week where one of the kids didnt have a doctors appointment or a trip to the hospital but my daughter ended up tripping down the steps last night and falling on her broken arm that hadnt been in a cast yet since the orthopedic couldn't see her till this Monday. So back to the ER she and I had to go last night and they were busy. but the good news was the X Rays they took last night came out where they didn't see the break from the first time even. So she was able to take off the last large splint thing and get a smaller one. I am hoping that maybe it healed over the last week though I dont know how. But it works for me and her. Taking a shower sucked for her as her dad had to tape on a plastic garbage bag to her arm so she wouldn't get it wet. This one comes off so she can take a shower without a bag lol. Anyway next week there are alot of doctors on the day we are supposed to move. They scheduled her 24 hour EEG on Tuesday which means someone has to be with her from 11 on Tuesday till 11 on Wednesday which is also the day that we are moving. Since the electric and utilities are going to be off at this house we need to get moved by then into the new house. I am still trying to figure out how we are going to swing all that as well as my other daughter has a OBGYN appointment that day as well. Ill find out tomorrow when I go to pick up my check if I have a job they had fired me right before Christmas cause I missed work when my daughter was passing out and things but my manager told me to come and talk to her after the first of the year and she would consider me getting my job back since I was a good worker and she understands about the kids. Hopefully everything works out as I really need the job now. Ill check in again before we make the actual move and all but I might be missing in action for a few weeks while we settle in and get the Internet set up in the new place. Happy Spankings until then.