Saturday at Allstate part 1~ The ceremony and spanking the bride

Saturday was a very eventful day lots to be done and it started out with our ceremony at 10 Am. I awoke a few times that morning as I was very anxious and excited about the day. I don't remember ho many times I awoke before it was time but there were a few. lol. Finally around 7Am Thomas and i both got up and he went down to meet Zed from the blog Zed and Ginger who we had arranged to help us go and get the cake.

I heard that was an eventful trip though and the cake was almost being worn by Thomas at one point due to a close call with another vehicle. But the cake and everyone made it back safe and sound. I was upstairs awaiting Katie to do my hair when it arrived. I looked at it and Thomas started to get ready himself. Katie came by and she started curling and doing my hair. It was alot of fun and at this point I had major butterflies. I was anxious before but now I was really anxious and scared. I had a few visitors as we were getting ready Renee stopped by and so did Suzy from the blog A.S.S. to see how things were coming. At this point Suzy and Thomas headed downstairs to set the room up. I hadn't known that there was plenty of others to help also available there as well. I was left with Katie to get ready and they set up the room and all.


When Katie and I were done and I was dressed and ready we headed downstairs. Katie had to help me hold my dress though as walking around in a wedding dress is not an easy task sometimes lol. When I arrived and seen what they had done I was shocked and surprised. It was absolutely beautiful and they even had an aisle for me to walk down. ZEd and JP had done alot to set up for pictures and Zed pretty much set the whole thing up for us and instructed me on how it would go.

It was really nice I must say. Alot more then we had expected but a very pleasant surprise. It made for a very memorable event thats for sure. Originally it was only going to be Thomas and I and a few friends in a private room. instead we were able to have a full ceremony in a banquet hall with lots of friends and help. Todd from the blog A.S.S. had spent many days ahead of time going over the sample ceremony we had emailed him. He did a wonderful job.


Thomas got through his vows pretty easily and they were really nice. I however was emotionally choked up and cried during my vows. Not being able to get them all out correctly though Thomas understood the meaning and was touched by the crying since it is hard to get me to cry usually.





It was splendid and very emotional. I can't thank everyone enough for all that they did for us to insure that it was a special day for us. Thanks again to everyone who helped and attended the event as well as those that helped or didnt attend but gave us well wishes. It was early in the morning on one of the busiest party days. But it ended up being an event that we will cherish forever.




It was very nice and amusing that after Todd announced that we could kiss the spanking part was next. Thomas had fun trying to get to my bottom easily. *giggles* wedding dresses are good for somethings hee hee.




I have some pictures to share and possibly a video as well. Due to timing there was not alot of time after the ceremony for others to get to spank the bride and a few had wanted to.





I ended up changing in and out of my dress a few times that day though so that we could get some pictures. I was even able to get a video opportunity with Richard Windsor. And I have the video to share of Santa Claus spanking a bride. lol. It was just a fun little clip but it was nice to get some play with Richard from The House of Richard Windsor as I have always wanted to and in meeting him this year I was happy. he's a wonderful guy and spanker and I enjoyed every minute of it as you can see in our video. I just love his accent *giggles*. I look forward to seeing him again next year if not somewhere before that. Before our video Todd took the opp to spank me as well in my dress. I had gotten a few other people that had asked to spank me and they took some pictures and some didnt want pictures just wanted to opp to spank a new bride in her dress. It was fun though and the ceremony was nice. I will share the videos and the pics here then the next post will be about the vendor fair and then a third post about the pirate night. Saturday was so busy and there is so much to write about. But for now heres the ceremony pictures and the spank the bride photos as well. lol. It was a lovely event and I have many many fond and beautiful memories of this important day with Thomas. Thanks again to the many people that helped make it so special.
My good friend spanking the bride

Santa spanks the bride


Afterwards as we were playing in the rooms gropie and I got a picture of Thomas after we bratted him some and took picture of him wearing my veil *giggles* that is a priceless pic lol.

Friday at Allstate

Friday morning started out pretty slow and boring at first. I awoke pretty early and headed downstairs to see what they had to offer for breakfast. I told Thomas I would be back since he hadn't wanted to come long. It was early and the registration for the party didn't start until 3 PM that day. When I went to breakfast there was a few people I knew from our group and I sat with them and we chatted for awhile. I must have been there for a little while because Thomas later joined us figuring that I had run into some spankos since it took me awhile. Around lunch time I think it was. I was sitting around doing nothing really Thomas had left to get the stuff out of the car and and i just sat and chatted with other party goers. Movies Bill saw me in the elevator and asked me to join him in his room for a little pre party play and to take care of my bratting from the night before in the resturant. Mr. Bill is a very gentle spanker and very friendly and well known so i had no qualms meeting him in private. He gave me a pre party warm up and I later ran in to another person I had meet last year at the party. He was the first non Thomas spanking i had at the Texas party last year. So I meet with him as well in his room for a little bit for some pre party spanking. Afterwards though it was getting close to the time to go register and I had ran into Thomas who was helping them set up the room for later on. I went down with him and helped a little. We then went and registered and the party was officially started. Everyone meet for the orientation upstairs and then we all headed downstairs for dinner and some play. The ice breaker that we had this year was private themed. Everyone that wanted to participate was given a paint stick that was called a “plank” we then had to get people to sign it. For bottoms this meant everyone that swatted their bottom with theirs would sign it and for Tops they would have the bottoms the swatted sign it. It was a lot fun and both of us got a few signatures. After the icebreaker there was lots of play going on as well. I actually got brave enough to brat a little and I bratted a Top that I didn't know personally but have talked to some in chats and seen him at the last party plus some of my spanko friends know him well. His name is black velvet. He was talking to another top at the time and i was throwing paper balls at him.I missed a few times and it took a few throws before he realized who and what I was doing. But he did come over and we played some. Its so hard to remember every little spanking that I got i did manage to get quite a few on every single night or the party even the before and after days. Lol. I do remember Thomas spanking me and another brat Renee Evans was bratting Thomas a lot that night as well. I cant recall exactly what it was we were doing besides eating at the time but somehow the remark was made that maybe I should go and talk to her about the ceremony tomorrow and rethink it. In a bratty laughing way of course she never meant it but she got spanked a few times. She is a very friendly and playful person it was a lot of fun to be around her as well. Later on that night there had been a spanking session going on with someone that was pretty intense it was a female Top spanking a female bottom. The bottom had a crowd as she was taking a very hard spanking from this women. Later on after that spanking I saw the bottom in passing. She was asking me if I saw her session and then told me that it was her first time being spanked by a women And that she had thought that it wouldn't be that bad because women had to be alot more gentle. She admitted that the intensity was the same if not more then that of a male top and that the experience was good and egged me on to try it So I went ahead and got a spanking from her. She had me over a spanking bench and she said since it was my first time she would go medium on me. The spanking she gave was quite intense though and left me with a pretty sore bottom that night. Later that night I had run into Todd and Suzy along with Richard Windsor. I had told Suzy that I wanted to brat Richard so I could get him to sign my stick. But that I was afraid to. She grabbed me by the hand and dragged me over to him telling me that he doesn't bite lol. I got a swat from him and a signature for my paint stick as well as one from Todd and Suzy. A few times I had been asked to give a switch or a bottom a swat to get a signature but it was all in good fun and it was really just love taps lol. Though paint sticks can hurt but we didn't want to give anyone full swats so we wouldnt break there sticks. After a very fun and eventful night I headed to bed around 12 I think and left Thomas to mingle I dont recall when he made it to bed though but we had to get up early so I wanted to rest some. Plus I was already sore and I had alot to get through the next day including the ceremony at 10 in the morning. I will also add some pictures of the sticks as well as some other things that happened on Thursday and Friday as soon as our stuff gets her as we had to send it by way of someone else's car and we had to fly due to the car breaking down. So once they get into town and everything we will arrange for getting our things. Which is both implement bags as well. Makes me happy to know that the bathbrush and nasty nylon cane are far far away at least for a little while. *giggles* Though I do have something to report tomorrow as far as implements are concerned. I wanted though to take it one day at a time and I still will end up forgetting something very important anyways.

A very fun and exciting day

Today has been very busy but I wanted to share a picture from the ceremony today it was beautiful and I have so much to write about and that will be coming soon. for now heres one of many photos from our ceremony. enjoy and I will share more later.

The trip to Texas

We made it to Texas around noon yesterday.The trip was long but pretty uneventful. It was driving and more driving. lol. We took our time getting here and had stopped to rest both nights. And there was a pretty bad storm when we where in Louisiana and we stopped then. But here we are in Texas safe and sound. The day we arrived went pretty well. Saw a few people we knew and ran into Todd and Suzy as they were coming in as well. Thomas and I went to the room got online soma and cleaned up before we headed to a nearby store to order our cake for the ceremony. We got that ordered then came babck to the hotel and hung around the lobby some waiting for the early arrivals. Ran into a few party goers and then we all meet at a Mexican restaurant.Up until this point everything was fine except I did get moody before and told Thomas I didn't want togo to dinner but wanted a cigarette. I ended up coming back to the room briefly of course he followed and upon entering the room he pulled out his cane. Quickly had me over his knee as well as he lectured about my attitude and my complaining about wanting to smoke. After wards I cleaned up my face and we went back to the lobby and meet with the others. We took along another couple and one other guy in our van with us to the restaurant. But upon pulling into the restaurant. The car decided to break down. It is currently sitting at the restraint and as it looks we will have to be finding another way home. Not sure yet how this is going to work but we are trying to not let it ruin our fun while we are here. Thomas was rather quiet at dinner though and I got to sit besides Suzy and Amber grey. That was pretty funny. Suzy and amber had not gotten alot of sleep as they were working on something all night and they were pretty wound up more Suzy though then anyone. Todd had been sticking the tortilla chips down the amber"s hood as she wasn't paying much attention to that cause Suzy was trowing paper balls around and I was blaming cinema swats Bill for it. So there was some laughing and playing going on. Amber finally realized what Todd was doing and it was funny. Blaming Suzy because she knew he was doing it.After The restaurant Todd and Suzy had invited a few people over to lay there new game spankopoly. So Thomas and I Had went and we had alot of fun. I left early around 12 or 1to go and get some sleep. Thomas stayed and I don't know when he got back. Now it is morning and I am going to go to the buffet breakfast downstairs as soon as I get fully awake lol. Today should be more eventful and lots to write about. I think cinema swats bill will be looking for me today hehe.

A quick goodbye

Well Tonight Thomas and I will be on the road and headed to Texas the long awaited day has arrived. I am very antsy though. We have a long drive ahead of us and wont actually make it there until Thursday and due to some issues regarding childcare we will be getting a later start though hopefully wont put us too far behind schedule. I hope to make it to Texas in time to get the room and freshen up from the long trip before the early arrivals dinner that night. Iam sure we will. I went and got my dress today and payed a few bills as well as set up childcare for tomorrow since our sitter has to go to the doctor at the same time my son gets home from school. i ran a few errands today trying to get everything done and came home to the phone Internet and cable being out. I wasn't a happy camper as leaving for the week Idont want to leave the sitter and everyone without phone so now instead of getting the things I need to get and doing what I need to do to leave I have to sit here and wait till the repair man shows up. really sucks though. I am using the laptop and getting connection from somewhere nearby lol. Anyway I just wanted to say hello and goodbye and for those attending the party I will see you in a few.....Im ready to be there now *giggles* really wishing there was teleport capabilities he-he. Anyway I should be able to get on and give some quick updates on the laptop but the large posts will be when we return. I cant wait to share pictures and hopefully a few videos as well. Specially of the ceremony. Bye for now

putting the finishing touches on preparing to leave

There has been alot of things going on and things are pretty hectic as we are preparing to leave tomorrow for Texas. We will be leaving after Thomas gets off work and should arrive in Texas by Thursday. We managed to find our costumes and need a little bit done for those to be complete. So we are working on getting that done. I am sitting here now waiting for the pool to be drained so that they can clean it and check it for leaks and all and hopefully by Friday the kids and sitter will be able to go swimming. Filling the pool back up will be what takes the longest time though I think. But hopefully we get it done. I should only have about an hour to wait here now then I can head out to get some fabric so Thomas's mother can sew me a sash for my costume tonight. Thomas and I have had a few things come up in the last few days that have needed to be dealt with in our relationship specially before the ceremony on Saturday. But our love for each other is very deep and we have the means to work through alot that being said there has been some issues on both sides regarding trust in the last few days. And we really need to sit down and talk about some things and have. But we are not in any danger of a break up or anything like that we just have to get together and wipe both slates clean before we go through with this commitment because of some dishonesty on both our parts. I found out some things he was dishonest about and I got mad hence the fact that he offered his bottom to pay for that even if I couldn't go through with it. But in all fairness I wasn't exactly that honest with him either and he found out as well. I have been smoking more then I let him know I have and just been keeping it hidden from him I was wrong just as he was and last night I got a hefty dose of the bath brush for it. Well I cant say that I liked the bath brush or the knowing that more is to come after the Texas party I can say that I am glad it came out and that we can both sit down and clear the air so to speak. I want us to go into the ceremony not withholding anything back from each other even if that means it will hurt us. I'd much rather deal with what ever punishment I will endure from it and be honest then have to hold in dishonesty and feel that I need to keep secrets because our relationship wont work with secrets. So from now on Thomas and I both need to promise and fulfill that promise to not withhold information from each other even if that information will be painful emotionally or in my case for my bottom. So even though I suffer more physically by it the fact that he knows he hurt me and is sorry for it does have meaning. I feel in domestic discipline situations that the spankings that come out of them aren't what actually makes someone behave or not do what they aren't supposed to do. As others know it is the feelings that involves around it the most that make it work more then anything. So that is why even without taking the hairbrush to him as he does me I can still have the forgiveness and things that he gives me as well. And just that fact alone and the fact that we can communicate not quite easily but we can better then I ever could makes our relationship deeper and more meaningful. I was told by my friend in Atlanta when I smoked a cigarette that I shouldn't keep things from him like that and it was dishonest but at the time I had the attitude that he does things behind my back that I know about so it didn't matter as long as he didn't know then it wouldnt hurt him or me. But I was wrong and having felt the sting from his recent betrayal I should have told him then but didn't. I held it in and he found out anyway and then I told him. But now having went through that and caring so much about him and our relationship I don't want to have to go through those feelings anymore and don't like the finding out after aspect of things. They end up hurting the ones involved alot more then if you would just come forward and admit your mistakes and go on. Which is a hard thing for anyone. But the respect and love I have for Thomas has made me realize that I don't want to keep those things from him and it does more harm then good. So as it stands I have a very serious discipline session coming on Sunday morning before we leave from Texas. I hate waiting as I would much rather get it over with but I also want to be able to play at the party so the bath brush was to hold me over till then. But I am really sorry for keeping that from him and I know he is sorry for hiding the truth from me as well. And we are both going to be more open with each other from now on because the last thing we want to do is hurt each other. This will probably be my last post before we head out as I have alot to do. I am hoping that I can get online some when we get there but I am not sure how much I will be able to do so. But I can't wait I am so excited and I feel alot better going into the ceremony with out anything hanging over over our heads. Love is a wonderful thing though and I am very thankful and happy to have found someone that can and will love me unconditionally even when I falter at times as humans do.

100 point spanking purity test

This Test was recently on a yahoo group I belong to and I thought it would be nice to post for fun before we head to Texas.

The 100-Point Spanking Purity Test
by Raandi from a now defunct website.

Have you ever...
1. Posted to a spanking newsgroup/bulletin board/mailing list? yes
2. Bought/downloaded spanking pictures? yes
3. Bought/downloaded spanking magazines or literature? yes
4. Been in a spanking chat room? yes
5. Bought spanking-related books in a real bookstore? no
6. Written a spanking story? If a short fantasy here counts then yes
7. Looked up the word "spank" in the dictionary? yes
8. Bought/watched a spanking video? yes
9. Cyber-spanked someone or been cyber-spanked? yes
10. Watched someone else get spanked in real life? yes
11. Been to a fetish shop such as Kinematics or Stormy Leather? yes
12. Purchased toys specifically for spanking? yes
13. Made your own spanking toys? yes
14. Spent more than $100 on a single spanking toy? no
15. Owned 10 or more spanking toys? yes
16. Had a spanking fantasy while masturbating? umm *blushes* yes
17. Had a spanking fantasy about a real life spanking you'd seen/read about? yes
18. Had a spanking fantasy while having sex? yes
19. Spanked/been spanked while touching intimately? yes
20. Spanked/been spanked during sex? yes
21. Given/had an orgasm while spanking/being spanked? not just spanking no
22. Spanked/been spanked with no specifically sexual overtones whatsoever? yes
23. Spanked/been spanked on the bare bottom? yes
24. Spanked/been spanked for more than 10 minutes? yes
25. Spanked/been spanked for more than an hour? yes but not straight continuous
26. Been involved in a situation where if something went wrong, the only
means to stop the scene was a safeword? yes
27. Used your safeword/ had someone use their safeword? yes once as a test really
28. Spanked/been spanked where there was no safeword? yes

Spanked/been spanked with:
29. A hand? yes
30. Paddle? yes
31. Hairbrush? yes
32. Ruler? yes
33. Spoon? yes
34. Cane? yes
35. Switch/birch? think so something similar
36. Crop? yes
37. Belt/strap? yes
38. Flogger/whip? yes
39. Implement with holes? no
40. Ordinary object not intended for spanking, such as a remote control or
shoe? yes

Have you ever...

41. Broken a toy (over someone's bottom) during spanking play? yes
42. Switched? (been spanked if you are primarily a top, or spanked someone
if you are primarily a bottom) yes
43. Spanked/been spanked on the back of the thighs? yes
44. Spanked/been spanked on the front of/inside of the thighs? yes
45. Spanked/been spanked on the breasts/genitals? yes
46. Wet your/your partner's bottom to make it sting more? yes
47. Spanked/been spanked outside? yes
48. Spanked/been spanked in a hotel? yes
49. Spanked/been spanked in a car? yes
50. Spanked/been spanked in a bath, shower or hot tub? yes
51. Made someone do something/been made to do something they/you did not
want to do? yes
52. Punished someone/been punished for not doing something correctly or
refusing to do something in a scene? yes
53. Punished someone/been punished for a real life issue? yes
54. Used spanking "talk"? (ie "You've been very naughty," "I'll be good,"
etc.)yes
55. Been involved in the acting out of a roleplay fantasy? yes
56. Been involved in the acting out of an ageplay fantasy? no
57. Asked for/been asked for a spanking? yes
58. Made someone/been made to count the spanks? yes
59. Made someone stand/stood in the corner? yes
60. Made someone stand/stood in the corner for more than 5 minutes? yes
61. Been provoked/provoked someone into spanking you by acting like a brat? yes
62. Deliberately disobeyed/had someone deliberately disobey, in order to
get spanked? for play yes is that not the same as 61
63. Kept a list of "infractions" to spank/be spanked for later? yes
64. Spanked yourself? no
65. Spanked yourself at the instruction of someone else/instructed someone
to spank him/herself? no
66. Required someone to/been required to call someoneSir/Ma'am/Master/Mistress/ Mommy/Daddy/ some-other- variation during spanking play? yes
67. Met someone specifically for spanking play? yes
68. Travelled more than 100 miles to spank/be spanked? yes
69. Placed/answered a spanking personal? yes
70. Gone to a play party or club? yes
71. Participated in play with someone at a play party or club? yes
72. Spanked/been spanked by someone whose name you didn't know? yes at parties
73. Paid or been paid to spank someone? no
74. Been involved in a spanking scene with more than one person at a time? yes
75. Spanked/been spanked by both men and women? (not necessarily at the
same time) no
76. Spanked/been spanked on a spanking horse or some other piece of
furniture specifically designed for spanking? yes
77. Made videotapes of your spanking play? yes
78. Taken pictures of/had your partner take pictures of you during or after
spanking play? yes
79. Admired your/your partner's bottom in the mirror after a spanking? yes
80. Spanked someone/been spanked nude? yes
81. Bought new underwear specifically for spanking play? yes
82. Worn fetish clothing (schoolgirl outfit, leather, etc?) yes
83. Worn fetish clothing in public? yes
84. Spanked/been spanked so that the spankee had trouble sitting afterward? yes
85. Spanked/been spanked so that the spankee had trouble sitting the next day? yes
86. Spanked/been spanked so there were marks/bruises showing? yes
87. Spanked/been spanked so there were marks/bruises showing for more than a day? yes
88. Had to explain your marks to a vanilla person? yes

Been involved with any of the following in connection with spanking play?

89. Restraint (ie. holding someone down, trapping their legs, etc.) yes
90. Restraint with ropes, cuffs, scarves or other bondage toys? yes
91. Blindfolds? yes
92. Gags? yes
93. Nipple clamps/clothespins? yes
94. Icy hot or some other heat-enhancing cream? yes but hate it
95. Ginger root or some other burning/stinging substance inserted anally? no
96. A butt plug, dildo or vibrator? no
97. Mouthsoaping? no
98. Enemas? no
99. Temperature taking? no
100. Cried/made someone cry from a spanking? yes

Okay now I got to go count lol. lol I am 86% spanking pure lol.

Some miscellaneous things

The Texas party is now just one week away. Though I think we are leaving on Wednesday to get there I am not real sure yet. I looked into the prices for gas verses flying and both would be about the same price but still pretty hefty. Unless we can find another vechile in the next few days to drive it looks like we will be bringing the splendor bus we have. lol. I almost backed out of the whole thing today but didn't. I am still going and I will still commit to Thomas at the party. Something was found out today that could have possibly put a real damper on the next weeks events. I had to do alot of thinking but given that he came home from work to talk to me about it and that it isn't anything really damaging to our relationship except a trust issue for a little while. Which I know is pretty big but it was a small thing and when you love and care for someone the way I do him and he does me communication can work through alot. Although I ended up receiving a trip over his lap with the hairbrush for smoking and he said that we would discuss the discipline for that later when he got home. I did ask him to wait till after the Texas party since its only a week away and I know that the discipline will be pretty sever I don't want any marks that wouldnt be healed by then. He agreed to wait at least until the last day of the party saying that I would have to ride all the way home on a sore bottom. Which really sucks because after a three day party full of spanking and play I'll be pretty sore anyway. I just found out the other day that after our ceremony which will include spanking of course their will also be a spanking booth set up during the vendor fair. It is to raise money for breast cancer and they asked for volunteer spankee's. I of course have to help for a good cause. Then that same night is the pirates party and there will be alot of other spankings going on throughout the day before that anyway. Lots of spanking going on Saturday night. But also The whole thing lead me to thinking. I do things wrong and I get spanked for them. But what about when the head of household was wrong how do you handle those feelings? Probably shouldn't write this on a public blog but in all fairness he did offer a consequence saying it would be the one and only time he would let me use the hairbrush on him. I declined though as I am not really a switch and being a submissive to him I couldn't see myself ever being on the giving end no matter what he does. I don't think I would be able to do it anyway. But it tickled me just a little that it was said and the thought of it made me smile. Especially coming from someone that I could never see ever being on the receiving end. Wonder if I should have at least given it a shot Nah. I am content with his apology and the fact that he cared enough to even explain himself and leave work to make sure that everything was okay. it takes alot for someone to admit their wrong even when they are caught red handed. But for the most part Thomas really doesn't go around doing things and in two years this feeling of what about when the Top is wrong hasn't come up but once before and then our relationship wasn't as deep and strong as it is now. Thomas has changed alot since I have known him. I mean I never would have seen him as a father figure and never would have guessed him to be one to ask for a commitment ceremony. I am sure others that know him feel the same. But he does have alot of love and caring and he does do alot to prove that our relationship is a very important one to him. But enough about all that. I have had a rough two days. Talked to a young en as well that was feeling crappy about a break up. My advice to her was she is so young and has so much time ahead of her and that most men by nature are dogs and will at some point hurt you in some way. We do the same to them I am sure though they are usually just a little less sensitive to it. I told her that the first thing she needs to do is take care of herself get her own life together and not to worry too much about any of the young boys she will find now. They are a dime a dozen and there are plenty when she is older that will be around to treat her right and when she finds the one that will love her like he should she will know it. Told her not to let the others bring her down. She needs to become independent and love herself first then she can show them that they need her way more then she needs them. Hopefully she felt better. I really need to clean this house though I have been procrastinating for awhile now. I have had some pretty upsetting days the last couple so I just havent had the desire to really do much. Still don't really I did manage to get some laundry done much and I think I will wait till tomorrow when my daughter is home and we can clean together. The house isnt that bad it just needs some weekly deep cleaning. On a good note hopefully our pool will be ready to swim by Monday the pool man is coming this weekend to drain it and clean it. Then we are going to fill it and he'll start it up for us and if we end up staying here awhile we will use him to keep it up since I dont know much about pools. lol. Well I am going to go and rest some and fold some more laundry. I can't wait till Texas though. I sure need the break from everyday. And it will be nice to have a getaway with Thomas without the kids. Their a little bummed about not being able to attend the ceremony but I told them that when we go the legal route they will be there even though since we are having a ceremony now we will probably just go with the clerk of courts when it comes time for the legal part. In our eyes though we will be married next Saturday. And the kids have helped me in preparing for it and things and there will be pictures and things they can see. They are excited and happy though and cant wait till we get home so they can see it. Im off to go get some rest and fold some of the laundry.

A letter to my so called mother

I have to say that while it doesn’t come as a shock to me I don’t feel you have the right to judge my lifestyle choices when yours are not the greatest yourself. Living your life so alone and hurting has to be a difficult thing. Trying to be what you think everyone else wants you to be doesn’t make life easier and doesn’t make people see you any different. Because I know that people can see right through your fakeness and the front you put on for others. Many have and continue to do so. Telling me that I can’t mother my children because I have an active sex life doesn’t make the fact that you don’t know how to be a mother yourself any better. But if it makes you feel better go ahead and keep saying it, keep putting your judgments on others lives especially on one that you raised. Disown me, I know you have, you did that long before I left your house about 16 years ago. But you know what… its okay. Anything you say or do can’t and won’t hurt me. I choose to not be bothered by it and I choose to let it go. We can’t choose who we end up being raised by but in our adult lives we can choose to allow those people to either love us or hurt us. Since you cann’t love and I refuse to let you hurt me I guess there is nothing left for us. There are no ties that bond us in anyway. There is no reason now that we ever need to talk and no reason why you should even worry about my life and what I do since you don’t approve of anything I ever do anyhow and it will never be good enough for you. Since you feel like you are so holier then thou and you claim to be such a Christian then maybe since you believe in that then reading the bible verse about love might do you some good. Maybe then you could understand a little about love and how to give it and receive it. Lucky for me and the children family isn’t defined by who raised you or who claims to be a sister, a mother, a father, a aunt or uncle or even a grandparent. And whose blood runs through your veins also doesn’t make you a family either. Family is defined by who loves you unconditionally and who is there for you in good times and in bad through thick and thin no matter what. And my kids know this and they see and realize everything and for them family is a lot more then biological or even adopted. Since most of the members of their family don’t share the same blood beside me and them. It is a feeling and a person that you are close to and remains close to you. For them their family is right here and they have the same love and respect for those that give it to them and they have one that they call grandma, they have a mom and a dad, they have plenty of uncles and aunts that care a lot about their lives enough to be actively involved in it and making it better for them rather showing hatred and putting them down and holding them back from life. And even in those relationships they don’t always agree with what the other does but it doesn’t change the fact that they love them and they care for them. Relationships are defined by what you make of them not by what wording they are called. A mother daughter relationship is only as strong as the feelings and the love given and received. Anyone can give birth anyone can adopt a child and anyone can claim a child as theirs. But if you constantly put that person down and you look for reasons they aren’t good enough then you’ll find them because in this world no one is ever perfect and no one ever makes the right decisions and not everyone agrees on everything all the time. To love someone you have to see beyond those things you have to want to be a part of them be it a child a husband or a close friend. You can’t love someone you judge for what you believe or don’t believe is right or wrong if you truly love them then they could do no wrong and the little things they do wont change the fact that you love them. You can’t turn love on and off it is either there or it isn’t. I never knew love in all my life besides that of my children. And having children myself I have to wonder why one that has so much hatred and ill feelings would even try to claim love or caring when there is no way to show it if you don’t feel it. So you go on with your life and ill go on with mine. I am happy and content with my family and those that love me just as they are happy and content receiving my love and being a part of my life. I have a loving and caring mother in my life and she judges me not. She doesn’t always like my choices and she tells me so in a loving and caring way but regardless of that she still loves me and always will. Just as I will my own children. If my children choose to be gay or strippers or whatever life they choose then I will still love them. I won’t be involved in their activities though but I won’t turn from them or put them down. After all the mistakes they make or choices they make are lessons they will learn on their own and they are the ones that will need to suffer any consequences that come from them. And I can only guide them, love them and be there for them and hope that that the choices they make are ones that will benefit them and not hurt or hinder them. If it is legal and not hurting others then who am I to say that the choices they might make along the way are right or wrong and that they don’t deserve my love. I wont and cant because when you truly love someone and you care then it is impossible to continue to hurt them and put them down. Now if I didn’t love them and didn’t have those feelings then like you it would be easy to put them down and to degrade them every chance I get and decide that the lifestyle or the choices they make aren’t worthy of my love or caring and I would walk away from them just as I am you now here today. I no longer want need or desire any kind of contact or association with you at all. I know there is no love I know there is no caring and I got the point a long time ago. I held on for the sake of my daughter you were raising but that’s now a mute point that’s a relationship that will take awhile to mend and when she is ready then I am as well. But I can tell you that it won’t involve you in any way. We never had a relationship really but whatever we did have that is now over. Have a good life and I hope that you find happiness aside from all your hatred.

Texas Allstate is just a few days away

Wow it is hard to believe that in about a week Thomas and I will be heading to Texas again for the big Allstate party. Last year was my first time attending but I look forward to seeing those a met last year as well as meeting many others. It really is a friendly bunch and this year there is more from what I can gather considering they had to have two seatings for dinner this year because of the number of attendees. The main costume theme party this year will be pirates. Thomas already found a nice new paddle when we went to Atlanta that has pirates on it.

I still need to find my costume and will be doing that in the next few days Thomas and i are probably go and look for that together since he also needs one. I have been very busy lately planning our special ceremony for the party. With the help of some pictures from Todd I was able to make a wedding invite/flyer for the event and Im trying to figure out how to format that so I can post it here at the moment lol. I have been looking very hard for a dress I wanted to go simple and find a white dress that was to formal but not just average. That proved to be very difficult and today I was at a prom and party shop looking for a dress and explained what I was looking for she didn't have any but called a bridal boutique in the area and talked to them. She sent me to them and even though I explained to her I wasn't looking for anything to fancy the unfancy ones were very expensive in the 400 range and what not. I really couldn't afford that and when she asked me what price I was looking for I said not more then a hundred she said she really doesn't have anything there for that price but she went and looked anyway. Me being busty made it difficult but she did find a dress that she had from someone that cancelled there wedding. It was a 400 dollar dress that she gave me a deal on since she wanted the event to be special. So I ended up with a bridal dress with a train and all for less then 100 dollars she told me that after the event I could sell it and probably get more for it then I paid. Which is nice I like the dress and I might not sell it but keep it for my daughter or just for keepsakes. It does need to be altered and she told me when I find a better fitting bra to bring it in and she will alter it cheap. I have done alot to make this event special and it is one I will remember for ever. Probably better then a real wedding because it is from the heart. The only thing left to plan for the wedding is the cake though we will probably get an inexpensive one when we are there. I reserved our room today so the only thing left to do is to plan the childcare and get our costumes and take the drive which will be costly. That will be probably the most expensive part even with a wedding ceremony planned. I got the stuff for that pretty cheap and made alot of the things myself. Todd has agreed to be the officiant and preform the ceremony for us. We were able to get the vendor fair room before the fair so we have an hour to use the room for the ceremony. I posted in the group asking anyone for suggestions and help with my hair and all and got quite a few responses. So I am confident it will be a very nice event. Committing our lives together at a spanking party is good. We will have both things that we love spanking and each other lol. I saw the schedule for all the events at the party this year and it is full from 8 in the morning most mornings till well into 4 Am in the morning. So there will be lots and lots to do and plenty of stories to come home with. All of which will be shared here on my blog as well as Thomas's. I know the weekend will be long and Thomas and I wont have much time together since we will be busy with the party but that doesn't matter much there is alot of fun to have and we will soon enough be home together again lol. Well I am going to get going I have a few more things to do before I go and get my daughter and Thomas. Take care and for those attending the Texas Allstate see you in a few short days.

Ceremony invite

Happy at patricks day

Today is a good day to write about our recent trip to Atlanta. Thomas and I took the kids to Atlanta for a family outing even though Friday night was a spanko event at a friends house. The trip was long as we had two kids in the car but we made it to Atlanta although the gas became alot more then we originally thought since the new van gets less then 10 miles per gallon. Which for the trip to Texas will make things expensive. When we arrived in Atlanta traffic was very congested and slow. But we still managed to make it to the party in time and had alot of fun.



On the way to Atlanta Thomas had stopped at a stop that he and I had stopped at many times and they have many soverniers including a few paddles and such. He usually stops and gets one though he has almost all of them now. Instead this time he found a toy whip. While it is leather it isnt a real one and not really a safe or fun toy in my eyes lol. Still he manages to tease and get a few licks in when he wants to and the kids aren't looking. My son also picked up an item. He has been asking for drums though I am not quite ready to equip him with a set as it would annoy the heck out of Thomas and I having a very high strung and hyper child loose with drums. So when we were there I saw Indian type drums and asked Thomas if it would be okay to allow our son to get one. With the okay I told my son to go ahead and pick one out but we both told him that there would be no playing with it in the car. Dad of course took his whip to the front and teased the kids telling them that it was to keep kids quiet on long trips. Our daughter and I didn't really see anything we found of interest though as she wanted a Georgia key-chain with her name on it. We were in Georgia at this time but the key-chains they had were all of Florida and we can get that at home. WE headed back on the road.



We arrived in Atlanta just at the hour of rush hour traffic though so it was very slow going and congested. I made a point to make sure that Thomas is the driver when ever we get into Atlanta as I am not the greatest in heavy traffic and I don't much like Atlanta traffic nor do I know my way around. I am very bad at that kind of things and have no sense of direction what so ever. We went to a hotel that was close to the convention but the rates were way to high and I knew that the hotels closer to the party were a bit cheaper. So we headed to a hotel closer to the party area. We arrived and put our little one to bed while I quickly got showered and ready for the party. I left my cell phone with my daughter and brought a prepaid one to take to the party so she can call us if she needed to. I called her twice though to check in on them while at the party.



The parties at Leelees are smaller then the Texas one but they are always one of my favorites because I know a few people and they are a friendly bunch. even if I dont get any spanking play in I have a good time seeing the hosts and my other friend Lynne who was also in attendance at this one. We had talked on IM and had already made plans to meet at the underground on Saturday with the kids while Thomas is at the convention. Ill write more about that in a minute. The contest was the first thing on the agenda after we all socialized and ate. Their were four other couples besides Thomas and I and we had alot of fun. Although Thomas used his evil salad spoon that he coated to make it durable. It was an ouchy event. lol. We had alot of fun and the couple besides us were joking about Thomas being a pro and they didn't know that he was coming lol. I got to watch the shamrock appear on her bottom as she was faced the opposite direction I was so we watched each other lol. As the judges were walking around their were a few comments and a few people taking pictures. I couldn't see what Thomas was doing on my bottom but I knew it had to be close to a shamrock by the conversations around it. So when Leelee took some pictures I asked her to show me as he was spanking me.

We were given 10 minutes to make the shamrock. When it was all said and done Thomas and I came in second. Though they announced that it was very close and a very hard decision. We recevied a prize though but when Thomas and i went to look at the prizes I laughed and said they are all evil prizes. I did say that I liked the looks of one cane in particular and Leelee commented that it hurt like a son of a gun. Of course I left the choice to Thomas because it was pretty much all things I wouldnt like much as they all were canes or loopys. He ended up picking the pretty clear one though.



I wasn't really getting any spankings though and was having fun talking to Lynne for most of the night. In our conversation though I put two and two together when she was talking to a man that goes by blaze. He handed me his card and it said something to the effect of "got rope?" I then asked Lynne if that was the same guy that did her rope bondage in her fet life pictures and it was. I was immediately intrigued though. Bondage is one of my biggest curiosities I love it but havent had alot of it. While Thomas was busy with Leelee I showed Lynne my new toys and collection since we rarely get to talk but through the computer. I got to show off the patty paddle from cane-iac and my Cookie paddle from Paddle Masters. Back to the subject of bondage I had asked him if he does hair bondage I think I can't remember how the conversation went though I do know that at one point the host had asked how many were okay with more then just spanking. It was later decided that while it is a spanking party since most attendees are BDSM in nature that that kind of play was allowed. So I got to experience hair bondage. He had asked me if I wanted it to look pretty or if i wanted it to be pulled lol. Thomas answered that one loudly and quickly that I wanted it pulled. So he went ahead and let me experience that. I wish I had a picture but we didn't get any. In Leelees house their are eyelets in the ceiling since she is BDSM as well and i think she also holds those kinds of parties though I do not know. In my curiosity though Blaze had asked me if I wanted to try it I was like yeah. Though I have a way of laughing when I am nervous. He could tell it was my very first time and that I was nervous but Blaze was very good at what he does and he made me very comfortable. I was still nervous but I had seen his handiwork on Lynnes page and I felt confident that he knew what he was doing. Plus i was at a party where i knew that the host and the attendees were all safe and sane so I wasn't going to be hurt in any way. The conversation before as he got the ropes ready was around what i would be wearing when he did it. he said the skirt might be difficult but it was my choice if I wanted to remove it. I opted to remain clothed I am just that shy sometimes and what we were doing pretty much had the attention of the whole party at that point. Blaze talked me through the whole thing and explained everything he was doing. As he got the ropes out and started getting me tied for the suspension. Since it was my first time it was agreed that Id me more comfortable face up rather then face down and he didn't bind my hands in anyway. The picture we got is a little blurred though since I was swinging and their was constant motion. We do have a short video but that will remain private since others faces are in that and we aren't entirely sure that they want to be on a public blog.



The suspension was at the end of the party and people were starting to leave. I sat with Lynne again and we talked a little about our plans for Saturday and a few others joined the conversation when we talked about my sense of direction and lack of it. Glad to know I am not the only one that has that lol. Lynne had mentioned that she has an extra GPS system that I could borrow out in her car. Which came in handy the next day when i was left in Atlanta on my own with the kids after dropping Thomas off at the convention. Before we left Thomas had taken me to warm my bottom since I hadn't been spanked other then the contest. We had a quick hand spanking as the party was closing. We went back to the hotel and fell right asleep though.

Saturday morning we all got up and I took Thomas to the convention and put in the address to the hotel on the GPS system. It talked me the whole way through getting me back to the hotel quickly and easily. Without that though I probably would have been wondering around Atlanta lost and confused until almost time to get him again lol. Lynne and I had plans to meet at 1:30 at the underground. So around 11:30 the kids and I got in the car and put the address for underground in the GPS and headed to Atlanta. I wanted to get there early to make sure I made it and nothing happened because I didn't want Lynne to have to be waiting for me. Everything went fine till we were almost at the mall. Apparently this weekend was their big st Patty's day parade and events. And while the GPS tracker took me right to it and all the roads that it told me to take were blocked. The kids and I kept driving around till I finally stopped and asked one of the cops at a road block how I could through to the underground. At this time I didn't know that the underground was part of the festival though so I was thinking it would be easy to get to once we got around the parade somehow. But not knowing where I was or where I was going other then what the GPS told me I was lost. lol. WE finally got an answer to go straight to I got to this one road then take that road and Ill go right to the underground. RIGHT it couldn't be that easy now could it. I took that road but ended up in traffic again. This time though we were pretty much stopped. I sat in the same spot for almost two hours and called Lynne a few times out of frustration saying I was giving up and as soon as I got through this I would pull over and find somewhere else to go. When it finally broke though and I found a parking spot I could see the underground so I called her back and said we would go anyway since I was parked and we were right there. By this time though it was almost 3 I think till we actually got in the mall and found each other. Once we did though we had lunch then walked around and talked and let the kids look around and take pictures. The kids got their face painted and my daughter and I got ours painted the same.

We got alot of pictures as well but most have one or the other of my kids in them so I cant show them here. We were getting bored with the mall though and weren't entirely sure how long we had till Thomas would call so we decided to go to the information desk and find out what was close by and not to expensive. The Cola factory was next door and not to bad butt still was more then we had the money for at the time. So we opted to find a walmart and head there. We left my car parked and went in Lynne's van. We checked the GPS she has for a nearby Walmart but found a target instead so we headed there. Just as we pulled into it though we got the call from Thomas to pick him up. So Lynne drove us back to our car and we went to pick up Thomas. I wasn't entirely sure where I was going and didn't have an exact address to put into the GPS so I kind of got lost around the area I knew I needed to be in just not sure where. We were lost and I tried calling back the number Thomas had called from but he was no longer with the people anymore so it didn't help me much. Finally though we made it and Thomas got to drive the rest of the way which we ended up driving to get dinner and go back to the hotel. We put the little one to bed and then realized that we really didn't have anything to do so my daughter and I walked to the nearby gas station hoping to get a deck of cards or something but they didn't have anything. I asked the clerk if they had anything to do in a hotel room and his answer was just beer. So we went back empty handed and I was tired anyway so I went to bed as did Thomas and our daughter. She stayed up a little longer working on her logic book and texting her friends in Florida. Id like to say we got some good rest but around two or three in the morning we were all awoken by banging noises on the wall including the kids. Apparently the hotel has paper thin walls because we heard every moan and noise from our neighbors early morning sexing. Even the kids woke up and heard it which I wasn't to happy about but couldn't do much about at the time.



Sunday morning we all got up and headed back to the convention. I didn't want the car this time as I told him he could just drop us off at the underground and go do what he needed to so since it was only going to be a short while before we headed back to Florida. The mall didn't open till 11 though and it was 930 so the kids and I had to walk around till they opened. We weren't really prepared for the weather in Atlanta. I had thought it wouldnt be to far off from Florida and the kids and I were hoping to go swimming at one point. Although the whole trip was rainy and cold. When the mall finally opened we went and took a whole bunch more pictures and waited for Thomas. I went to go and look for a dress for the ceremony at Texas but havent had any luck anywhere yet. Finally Thomas found us at a store and we headed to another store where my daughter had saw some jeans she wanted but I told her to wait till her dad got there and gave his approval. When we went back though we found out that they didn't carry her size in those jeans so we didn't get any. We went and had lunch then headed home. We arrived home late Sunday evening and Lynne had told me since I liked the GPS and needed one that I could have that one so I played with it on the way home lol.



So we had a very fun and eventful time in Atlanta. Now we are preparing for Texas. My daughter has been helping me prepare for the ceremony as well and she and I went last night to try to find a dress again with no luck. We did find a few items though and i got some jewelry and some decorations and made a flower arrangement with my son for the ceremony. Im quite proud of it as it came out well and looks really pretty. Thomas, the kids and I had already picked out the rings before we left for Atlanta. So while the kids wont actually be there for the ceremony they are helping me with it and are excited as well. We will have to edit alot of the video for the kids though since it is being held at a spanking event and spanking will be part of it. We will have to have two endings one that says you may now spank the bride and the kids version where it is you may now kiss the bride lol.

Anyway Happy St Patrick's Day everyone and make sure that you go to Thomas blog and vote for the next implement in the Cookie challenge he has a post that he is running the vote on and only those votes will count. So far the Lexan is winning yeah for that. Once we get through this trip to Texas wqe can again begin the challenge.

Quick check in

Well we just got back from our trip to Atlanta. I had a blast as always and got to see a friend I havent seen in awhile. Lots of fun and interesting things to write about but sadly I dont have the time tonight to put it all together and make a coherent post lol. But I can tell you that I had a great time and have some great things to write about. Some of this includes my very first experience with something I have wanted to try for awhile. I will try to get it together for a post tomorrow. Ill have to get Thomas to leave me the pictures and the video so I can post them or add them in later after he gets off work. Whichever way I should have a video maybe and some pictures. The spank a shamrock was interesting. Everyone seemed to have alot of fun doing it. Ill post the rest tomorrow. For now I am off to lala land and to catch up on some rest.

The Cookie challenge 2 - The rematch

Well I know I had said that I wanted my bottom to stay in pristine condition for Friday at the SOS party. But needing a little play and the opportunity to get that on Monday night Thomas and I did a rematch of the Cookie challenge. Now this one was still undetermined though as we had a little problem at the end but Ill say the details. You can see for your self in the video. Its been determined that my limits for a hand spanking will probably far outweigh the spankers ability or my bottoms as well. Though I did have the disadvantage of being on my asthma medicine that makes me more sensitive to things since it is a steroid and probably was alot of the reasons for my bottom giving up before Thomas or I lol. Anyway here is the second challenge the rematch of the hand....So enjoy



Now the next challenge will depend largely on viewers votes. Oh by the way make sure you vote for the paddle its my favorite *giggles* Votes can be in a comment on either my blog or Thomas's as well as in a comment on the spanking tube where the videos are. Which has already gotten a few votes before we even got a chance to know it was available. So their are plenty of implements to vote on I dont know if Thomas is going to have a poll or just ask for suggestions you can check out his blog for more details.

We have so much fun during these videos and feedback is always nice. It is fun to know that others enjoy it just as much as we do. The rest of this month is going to be pretty hectic with The parties coming up and all. But we will continue again very shortly. And my birthday is in April so I'm sure Ill have a spanking video for that lol. And the Texas Allsate is fast approaching us. WE need to get things organized for that trip as well. Specially since we have a few things to plan for that date. This weekend we are are going to be off for the st Patrick's party so our posts will be scarce until we return on Sunday if we have time to even post then. Its a long ride. But anyway hope you all enjoy the video and ill see you soon.

weekends are hectic

Thursday through Sunday my days are really hectic and are spent sleeping since I work 9pm till 7am on Thursday Fridays and Saturdays. It leaves little room or time to get on the Internet though. But I have been able to get some time with Thomas and talk about a few things and our relationship. Things have been well and we have had a few discussions about some of the issues in our relationship. Everyone has them and yes I vent and complain on my blog about them but ultimately we have a great relationship and I feel safe and secure in knowing that he loves me and I can tell him how I feel without the chance of physical or other harm. Something I needed awhile to get used to and still struggle with. I usually shut down in those times out of fear or I vent such as on my blog. But Thomas is a fighter as far as that is concerned and he knows me well enough to know how to get me to open up even when I fight it. And as far as relationships goes Thomas is the one person I could trust to not hurt me in anyway shape or form on purpose or just because he can. He really is the direct opposite of that and would do anything for me and the kids within reason and has. Just as important to me as he is I am to him and it really does show in our everyday lives and with the kids. Even with the poly issue we stand pretty strong in our commitment to each other and my lack of communication skills is really one of our only major problems which Thomas handles well and usually can get me through them. I also have my issues with PTSD that my relationship with Thomas has also gotten me through alot of. They are still there but he knows me and knows how to break my walls down in a loving and caring way and help me get through the emotional turmoil I sometimes go through. The other night after we had communicated about some things that was bothering us The conversation lead to the make up which is the greatest part lol. But I really believe in healthy and loving relationships communication is the key to happiness. If one isnt communicating their feelings or holding things in then things quickly get taken out of proportion and one or both are left feeling unhappy or hurt. So regardless of the name it is called roommate, lover friend, boyfriend or any of that it all boils down to we are in Love and that love runs pretty deep on both sides. We are committed to each other in many ways. With that it has been asked if I would like to have a symbolic ceremony devoting us to each other at the Allstates this year. I haven't really answered him exactly yet. But I have thought alot about it and talked to a friend at work about it. Financially a legal marriage isnt in the works any time soon. Largely due to the children and their medical issues. A legal marriage would put their insurance at risk and I cant lose that with all they have going on and their need for continued medical care. We couldn't afford to change that at the time and I wouldnt want to lose that over something that can be done without the legal standpoint. Largely I feel that a marriage is more symbolic anyway and that the legal standpoint is just a piece of paper. We can legally get the piece of paper anytime after the kids are gone or our finical situation changes drastically. Its the symbolic that means the most anyway. The fact that two people would take the vows to devote their lives to each other is all that is needed for a marriage to be real. And I dont need a piece a paper that says I am married as much as I need my husband to say that he loves me and is committed to me and mean it. Which I really believe Thomas means it when he says it because he also shows it. So my answer will be yes and we aren't sure really when or how we are going to accomplish this but I am really looking forward to it and it means more to me that he even asked then whether or not it is legal. To me it will mean everything that a marriage should mean just without the paper. So for those that read the blog and are attending the Texas Allstate party it will be nice to have you there as Thomas and I devote ourselves to each other. This weekend we are heading to the SOS party. Its the spank the shamrock theme and it should be fun. We are travelling with the kids and while Thomas is at his anime convention I will be site seeing with the kids. I am looking forward to the break as I really need it we all need it and I miss the friendly host LeeLee and cant wait to see her again. shortly after that it is Allstate time. I am really looking forward to that greatly. Ill be coming back with a whole lot of stories and as a married woman lol. So there is alot going on in our lives in the next couple of weeks but they are fun and many memories will be made. I cant wait to see everyone as both parties we attend have some of the friendliest and kind spankos I know. Look for the stories and things to come soon. We havent done anything with the cookie challenge lately now it is because I want my bottom to be a clean slate for the contest. Although Thomas wants to be a judge Im trying to talk him into participating. We have a pretty good winning streak with contests so far and it would be nice to keep that lol. He claims that this will be harder to accomplish but I am confident he is creative enough to do it. Should be interesting and even if we lose our streak it will be fun at least lol. Well I am off to get some things done take care.

a little quiz time

I found a few quizzes on different sites and decided to use them as my post today. Here are my results from the quizzes.

http://www.quizilla.com/quizzes/283077/what-kind-of-spanko-are-you

Your Result

Extreme: You believe that spanking is about pain, punishment, and domination. For you, spanking is not about recreation or fun at all - at least not for the person receiving it. Instead, you see it as a serious deterrent for bad behavior. You are not overly concerned about crying and markings since these things are very temporary, but the message of submission and discipline is long lasting indeed. You are likely to be involved in or seeking a 24/7 Master/slave relationship.

Your result for The How Kinky Are You Really Test...

Expert

You scored 63% Kinkiness!

You've done all of the positions in most of the books, you've found out about safe-words and understood what I was talking about with the whole safe-sane-consentual. You've probably discovered at least the BDSM sites online, maybe even local groups and have been learning all about your favorite fetish. You enact those fantasies which aren't too taboo and play out in your head during sex the ones you aren't sure how your partner will react. Remember, communication is everything, they can always say no or ask for a compromise. You never know, they might hold the same fantasy in their head, afraid of how you'll react to it.

Take The How Kinky Are You Really Test at HelloQuizzy

Your result for The female sub spanking test Test...

82 Variable #1

Description 1

Take The female sub spanking test Test at HelloQuizzy

well that is all I have for now there are a few others but I have a few things I have to do before I can finish them anyway just a little to share for now.

Oh the fun we have at work

Last night I had to work. Switching shifts has been pretty interesting as the second and third shifts are not as busy as the first and the co-workers are alot more interesting lol. Last night I did or was supposed to work a split shift I was supposed to work 5 pm to 2 am but since there was not alot of business I was home by 10 PM. And not having alot of business meant we were cleaning and talking to each other now the conversations at work can get pretty interesting specially the co-workers I have and I worked with the one that has recently became a female Top. And as I found out last night also enjoys the company of both females and males. So as we were cleaning and things it was brought up about freaky the workers at waffle house are and I found out a few things about some of them. And we had quite the interesting conversation going on about things. Since no customers were around and the conversation took the turn to females on females topic I revealed a little that I was not necessarily Bi but that I did have an interest in being spanked by a female. I wondered if it would be different then being spanked by a male. Not in a sexual way as females dont really do anything for me that way but spanking really doesn't much either. We were discussing how much drama goes on the other shift with some of the girls that work mornings and how working a morning feels like you are working in a nursery and babysitting a bunch of whining kids. I laughed and told the female Top that I wouldnt mind being babysat. We discussed a video thing including the spankee dressing in pigtails and having a babysitter and what not.



We had alot of fun and we were laughing and cleaning and giggling. We went outside for a cigarette and were sitting there talking when the one coworker busted out with I hate to break up our fun but it is 8:30 by the way. The second shift ends at 9. And we weren't paying much attention to the time just cleaning and talking so it shocked us but it was funny when we all realized the night was over. though at that point I still would have has about 5 more hours to go. But considering we hadn't had any customers in the first three hours I was there they said I could leave at 10. But memories are certainly made at work and the conversations we have are interesting. I told her I so had a blog to write after last night but by today when I actually went to write it alot of it was playful banter that its hard to remember how and what way all the conversations went last night. But it was fun and waffle house is truly a place that coworkers and customers alike can make some fond memories.

Friends Award

Ronnie from the blog heart and soul nominated me for this award and I am honored to pass the award on to 8 other bloggers. I hope that I didn't duplicate any as I have seen the award on many blogs so I am sure I might have. I am sorry if I did. It wasn't on purpose.

The Rules to accepting this award: “Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award.”

“These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers.”

The eight blogs that I nominate are......

Thomas ~ Thomas's Spanking Exploits
Todd and Suzy~ American Spanking Society
Tapestry~ Princess of Pout
Tiggs~ A Spanking Good Time
Dante ~ Dantes Paradiso
Sherie ~ The Inner Workings of Dixie
Princess ~ Submissive Sparks
Richard Windsor ~ The House of Richard Windsor


As always it was difficult to choose just 8 as I enjoy alot of blogs and have made quite alot of friendships both online and in real life. There are so many that deserve this award and I hope it gets passed all the way around a few times. So enjoy these friendly blogs.

generating fun

Thhguot taht I wulod hvae smoe fun wtih my psot tdaoy and I did a few getanroer tihngs innilcudg a wrod smrlcbaer to see how mnay peolpe culod aluclaty raed the psot taody. lol. I Had aolt of fun wsnitag smoe tmie tadoy. I rlealy dnot hvae aolt to do taody awnyay. I dnot konw wehn we wlil be dniog the Cokioe cenglhale aagin ahugltoh I do hpoe taht it is soon. I colud use a good sipnnkag I am srue. Ejony tyao'ds mesinsg aruond I aylwas lkie to see the diefnefrt tghins tehy hvae to do wtih pureicts and thnigs. Tah'ts why I aawyls lkie wehn Tmhaos deos the gnotaerer tinhg on his bolg. I shrae a pturcie in one of the gearentor tgnhis taht I hvae neevr sahred beorfe so I was jsut woindnerg how mnay ppoele can fiugre out waht the pirutce is. It wlil nveer be swhon dtercily tughoh but it was fun to hdie it in bfaeksrat food. Hvae a good day and enojy. And let me konw if annoye can guses the pcrtuie taht is hdedin in the pkneacas.

some random stuff

Well I have been doing alot of thinking and things and have come to some choices. As everyone knows Thomas is poly and always will be. I am not and although I have come to some decisions regarding this. We have a very good relationship for the most part outside of the non monogamous thing. But for me to except this and deal with it then I need to see the relationship in a different light as I now have. I cant claim him to be my boyfriend as I have since one he openly claims he is single and looks for other relationships as well. It will take some getting used to but I guess I can handle our relationship being as single and roommates which is basically what we are. I cant say that as a single person I might not find someone that will settle down and be with me and me only if it happens it happens I do know that Thomas is not that person and never could be. But he is a very active part of my life and keeping things the way they are as far as that is the best for all involved. Now the kids side of things is a little harder to deal with since I wont condone the fact that we have multiple partners to the kids by any means. But I also dont see leaving Thomas all together and losing what we do have either. We can be discreet and the kids wont have to know anything. Maybe there is some good out of a open relationship though I couldn't tell you that right now as it is something I have to get used to myself. And it kinds of dampens the owned thing as well. I have to separate my feelings somewhat to be able to handle this and I know that it gets hard to do specially since things bother me still such as him coming home on a Thursday morning from spending the night elsewhere and having sex with me. The thought of him being with someone else and then me just kind of made the sex less then enjoyable it was also the fact that before that he hadn't even touched me much less fucked me for well over a week before that. So I am not leaving him so to speak although I am detaching somewhat and going on as if I was single which will make it easier to deal with. Last night Thomas and I meet with someone I had been conversing with online who wanted to meet me. We all meet at apple bees for some dinner and things went well although it felt a little awkward to me. This person is in an open relationship as well so I guess it isnt all that odd I just dont see how it all goes yet. He is somewhat new to the lifestyle though he has seen and been around it just never participated in it. If we talk some more and have some more meets then I would become a learning experience for him I would suppose you would say. He seemed like a really nice person and I wouldnt mind having a few more meets and maybe one day letting him practice on my bottom so to speak. Not really planning on jumping in the whole dating scene again but ready to try it out again. Although it will be different then I am used to since I am pretty honest about things it will be different telling a person that I am involved sexually with my roommate. odd but I guess it can have its advantages though I mean if one isnt giving me any then the other probably would that is the weirdest thing to me though. As far as things are now it seems that Thomas and I will stay roommates as long as he wants and while there is still one issue that is over our heads as far as that is concerned as of right now that issue is in the works as far as my decisions and it has nothing to do with poly as it does with other choices he has made and things he does that I dont want to be associated with as long as it doesn't effect me or the kids as it hasn't yet then I will stay out of it. The minute it does though I can assure that I will be moving on. So those are choices he has to make and being roommates depends on his choice. I have some pictures that I finally got to take of the paddle that we won from Todd and Suzy they aren't the greatest as I took them with my camera phone lol.


And speaking of pictures I also was playing around and took a picture of the mirrors we have hanging above our bed in our room. As you can see they are quite fun to have placed there where you can see your nightly activities well. there is actually seven panels and it is the whole width of our bed and pretty much covers the whole room as well as another mirror in the bathroom in front of our bed.

Well I am going to go and get some rest and things alot of things on my mind and all that. Just wanted to give a heads up that I am going to try to begin and go along the poly journey hard as it may be though. But any change is always hard to get used to.