Randomness

Things have been getting back to normal after the recent events. It has been crazy busy around here with kids everywhere and trying to get ready for school starting. between the neighbors two boys and my two they keep the both of us busy. Just like all boys they often get into arguments and sometimes decide to actually try to fight. My son and her 7 year old go at it the worse though. they both have battle wounds from their moments of stupidity and fighting. They are almost alike and that clashes when they get a wild hair up their asses. Her two boys have become a permanent fixture at our house lately LOL. Last night they asked if I would watch them so their mom can go out for her birthday. They haven't gone home yet every time that she tries to get them to go home they ask if I can watch them. They like our Xbox game halo and like to come and play that. They also like to pretend they are water and fire and earth benders and made up some pretend game they always play. Right now they are all being quiet watching TV. LOL

Well I didn't get away with things even when I wasn't technically with Thomas although admittedly I never really left the house just left him a note and slept on the couch. I of course was emotional and decided it would be a good idea to go and get a pack of cigarettes since I wouldn't have to be living under his rules anymore. I ended up smoking two packs though and and even mentioned to the neighbors that I was thinking of drinking my sorrows away. Im not really a drinker though but have in the past gotten intoxicated it is fun for the moment sometimes but the after effects are never any fun. Lucky for me that I didn't have the money though and that I don't beer. I avoided the whole drunken stupidity which when we got back together would have been horrible since I am allowed to drink but not get drunk. However since im not a drinker it only takes about two to get me there.

Thomas gave me the nylon cane for the smoking during our break. He says that regardless if I am with him or not that I still shouldn't be smoking which I agree though I am not that strong about it. The threat of the nylon is really the only reason I didn't smoke. So I will have to believe that if we ever do really split for good that ill become a smoker again. Who knows I know the first few drags made me light headed and sick to my stomach and now I crave them again. Hopefully I can still avoid them even when people around me are smoking because the nylon cane is a killer. Since it was 40 cigarettes he decided on a stroke for each one. Which really worried me as i know that he isn't as light when it is for smoking I was thinking I was never going to make it through that. He did however let me know that he would cut it in half if I was able to stop protesting and take the twenty. I made it through though I don't know how LOL. He told me that while he didn't give me the other 20 then they are still on table should I fail to keep away again. meaning if I take a drag or smoke again then I will also get the other 20 owed to me on top of the punishment for the smoking I would have gotten. I don't plan on smoking again.

However even though I was hoping it was that wasn't the end of my spankings that night. During our talk one of the things we talked about was my failure to communicate that leads to alot of things that could be avoided. I wasn't in trouble for the actual act of breaking up and my feelings and things but that he would address my failure to come to him when it starts to get there and for not telling him even when he directly asked me what was wrong. So he let me know that we would be addressing that though never said when or how. later that night though as our oldest spent the night somewhere else he decided that it would be a good time to address that since our wedding gift is used as insurance that our time together is happy. So it was a wise choice given the transgression. So before bed Thomas sat on the bed and had me remove my bottoms and go over his knee stressing the importance of communication in our relationship and how I need to be more vocal when something is wrong as he isn't a mind reader. After a brief lecture the spanking begin. It was worse then what it would have been given the fact that i was bruised and tender from the nylon caning a few hours before. Afterwards we cuddled and went to bed.

I haven't earned any other spankings though we are hopefully going to be practicing the tieing up thing soon with the neighbor as well. Not sure whether I will get any spankings then or if it will just be a fun practice session with Naughty neighbor LOL.

Also the first video is now available at Birchwood Academy.  from fetishcon. It features Crystal frost who I met briefly when I was there. I think it came out well so go check it out. heres the preview for the video.