Samantha Grace in Time for sleep

Thomas was lucky enough to meet and shoot with Samantha grace while she was here in Florida recently. I was not able to actually get to meet her this time though I would have liked to. I was able to see here briefly during the superheros show they did on the main stage the day I got to go but that is about all of her I got to see. Birchwood Academy now has the first video starring here as well.


Many who read this blog probably know her and her own blog already. However if you do not know who I mean then check out her blog here. Samantha Grace Blog

The first video he has edited with her is now available at Birchwood Academy
And here is a quick preview of that video. From what Thomas told me Samantha is very friendly and cute spanko who has done spanking videos with many known names in the industry. So I was happy to know that he got the opportunity to have her across his knee for the video. I know he enjoyed the time very much and hopefully you all will enjoy the video.



I was hoping to have posted before this but did not get around to it I had a great post in mind about something I saw on Oxygen but I will save that for another time. For now go and get your video of Samantha Grace!!!!

The Spanking Bloggers network and forum

Some of you have already noticed the little chalkboard button displayed on my sidebar labeled proud member of... that looks like this.....


If you have clicked on it you will be taken to Spanking Bloggers Network that is a blog roll of many spanking blogs. It's like a one stop shopping for spanking related blogs. I'm proud to say that I am member as well as many other spanking blogs.

We used to have a yahoo group that everyone connected to Spanking Bloggers Network could join and we could talk about many things related to blogging etc. etc. And when a certain blog had a special feature they could post in the yahoo group for others to help feature on their own blogs.

Since Thomas's yahoo at that time got deleted he decided to try out another venue for networking and getting the Spanking Bloggers Network members connected with each other. Out of that came the Spanking Bloggers Network Forum. Here we have the freedom to talk about blogging, or almost anything we want to. It helps to have other spanking bloggers to ask questions with or get help with any features and things.

Also Thomas has started a blog of the month feature for the Network Blog. Each month members of the network blog will nominate a blog. It doesn't even have to be a members blog just a spanking blog. After the nominations are in he then cast a vote where we all vote on which blog we feel deserves the title of spanking blog of the month. The first month it was My Bottom smarts and this past month it was Hermiones heart. The voting is still going for Septembers blog so I can't share that information yet though I know who is in the lead and it is a good one!!!.

So while there are probably many other blogs and things like this the Spanking Bloggers network stands alone as far as I know with having their own forum to connect each other together. That's makes us unique and different and also it is quite fun and there are many different discussions and things spanking related or just normal everyday chit chat.

So if you are a spanking blogger and would like to join us in the Spanking Bloggers Network please do. The more the merrier and it can be a useful tool for some new blogs to get their name out there as well as ask questions about blogging and things. If Thomas or I don't know the answers to the questions there is a good bet that another member probably does. So spanking bloggers come and join us today. I will start posting the blog of the month on my own blog as well. Maybe I should be spanked for not doing that yet. The first two blogs were and are great spanking blogs. See you there!!!!

Purple highlights for Cookie? Readers get to vote

I have been wanting to try something with my hair. Not sure how it would come out and what not but considering I like purple I was thinking of putting purple highlights in my hair. I have even debated going black with purple highlights but have been told by quite a few that they don't think I would look good with black hair. But I have gotten quite a few that said purple or pink highlights would look good in my hair.

Ever since I started dating Thomas on a regular basis he has been against anything out of the ordinary for hair or body etc. etc. He doesn't like piercings or tattoos and all that. I had my naval pierced before when I was a bit skinner and thought about getting it redone when i get skinny again LOL. However Thomas said no way. And I have wanted other tattoos that he also said no way as well. As far as my hair I would hope that he really wouldn't care to much about how I do it as it will always grow back. I can understand the piercings and the tattoos a little more but then again I really don't see what the big deal is.

I have been asking just about as long about dying my hair purple or at least purple highlights I don't think I will go all purple that would be a little extreme. Although I have always gotten the same answer. A big fat NO. He told me that if I dyed my hair he would cut it off which I doubt that he would but I'm not chancing that one LOL. I like my hair way to much and don't even let hairdressers cut my hair.

I beg him for lots of things that he won't let me get and the day we were shooting I begged some more like I always do trying to get Willow to agree and talk him into it. But I did make some progress. He did decide that we would do a video and he would show the readers what i look like with purple highlights)though not the kind I meant) LOL. He then said if I can get enough people to actually say that they believe that I would look good with purple highlights then he would let me dye my hair with purple highlights.

Here's a little promo of the full video that is now available at Birchwood Academy


Now as I posted this there has been two comments to the video already one in favor and one against. As much as I want to say and beg and plead for all my readers to vote yes for purple highlights I want it to be an honest opinion as well. If you really don't feel that a few purple highlights in my hair would be cute then vote that way. But if you agree that it would look good and is something worth trying please go and vote yes for purple highlights as soon as you can LOL.

As I post this Thomas hasn't posted yet about the highlights but will be posting today and I will update the link to Thomas's blog to go to the actual post about my purple highlights. Okay link is updated!!!!! it will take you right to the actual post where you can leave a comment and vote!!

Thanks and PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE vote YES to PURPLE highlights for Cookie!!!

Randomness

Things have been getting back to normal after the recent events. It has been crazy busy around here with kids everywhere and trying to get ready for school starting. between the neighbors two boys and my two they keep the both of us busy. Just like all boys they often get into arguments and sometimes decide to actually try to fight. My son and her 7 year old go at it the worse though. they both have battle wounds from their moments of stupidity and fighting. They are almost alike and that clashes when they get a wild hair up their asses. Her two boys have become a permanent fixture at our house lately LOL. Last night they asked if I would watch them so their mom can go out for her birthday. They haven't gone home yet every time that she tries to get them to go home they ask if I can watch them. They like our Xbox game halo and like to come and play that. They also like to pretend they are water and fire and earth benders and made up some pretend game they always play. Right now they are all being quiet watching TV. LOL

Well I didn't get away with things even when I wasn't technically with Thomas although admittedly I never really left the house just left him a note and slept on the couch. I of course was emotional and decided it would be a good idea to go and get a pack of cigarettes since I wouldn't have to be living under his rules anymore. I ended up smoking two packs though and and even mentioned to the neighbors that I was thinking of drinking my sorrows away. Im not really a drinker though but have in the past gotten intoxicated it is fun for the moment sometimes but the after effects are never any fun. Lucky for me that I didn't have the money though and that I don't beer. I avoided the whole drunken stupidity which when we got back together would have been horrible since I am allowed to drink but not get drunk. However since im not a drinker it only takes about two to get me there.

Thomas gave me the nylon cane for the smoking during our break. He says that regardless if I am with him or not that I still shouldn't be smoking which I agree though I am not that strong about it. The threat of the nylon is really the only reason I didn't smoke. So I will have to believe that if we ever do really split for good that ill become a smoker again. Who knows I know the first few drags made me light headed and sick to my stomach and now I crave them again. Hopefully I can still avoid them even when people around me are smoking because the nylon cane is a killer. Since it was 40 cigarettes he decided on a stroke for each one. Which really worried me as i know that he isn't as light when it is for smoking I was thinking I was never going to make it through that. He did however let me know that he would cut it in half if I was able to stop protesting and take the twenty. I made it through though I don't know how LOL. He told me that while he didn't give me the other 20 then they are still on table should I fail to keep away again. meaning if I take a drag or smoke again then I will also get the other 20 owed to me on top of the punishment for the smoking I would have gotten. I don't plan on smoking again.

However even though I was hoping it was that wasn't the end of my spankings that night. During our talk one of the things we talked about was my failure to communicate that leads to alot of things that could be avoided. I wasn't in trouble for the actual act of breaking up and my feelings and things but that he would address my failure to come to him when it starts to get there and for not telling him even when he directly asked me what was wrong. So he let me know that we would be addressing that though never said when or how. later that night though as our oldest spent the night somewhere else he decided that it would be a good time to address that since our wedding gift is used as insurance that our time together is happy. So it was a wise choice given the transgression. So before bed Thomas sat on the bed and had me remove my bottoms and go over his knee stressing the importance of communication in our relationship and how I need to be more vocal when something is wrong as he isn't a mind reader. After a brief lecture the spanking begin. It was worse then what it would have been given the fact that i was bruised and tender from the nylon caning a few hours before. Afterwards we cuddled and went to bed.

I haven't earned any other spankings though we are hopefully going to be practicing the tieing up thing soon with the neighbor as well. Not sure whether I will get any spankings then or if it will just be a fun practice session with Naughty neighbor LOL.

Also the first video is now available at Birchwood Academy.  from fetishcon. It features Crystal frost who I met briefly when I was there. I think it came out well so go check it out. heres the preview for the video.

My greatest weakness

I do believe that I have at least one weakness LOL. Communication is really my greatest weakness as it just doesn't come easy for me to communicate how I feel. I tend to bottle things up and just assume that someone should know how I feel. Usually I can write how I feel but that also isn't always easy for me either. And sometimes I just don't even know how I feel so it is hard to express why I feel horrible when I just don't know myself.

This problem that I have does seem to cause me and those around me alot of unneeded hurt at times. I'm sure it is frustrating to others to know that I am hurt or upset but not know why or how to make me not hurt. I sometimes believe that I'm expressing myself though not in the normal way of just telling someone what is bothering me. Like with some recent events with Thomas and I. I have to admit fault as well as to not just expressing myself. I tend to think that Thomas should just be aware of certain things and act accordingly.

We were able to talk some last night. I was a bit shocked at thomas's reaction to the letter I gave him telling him I was done with our relationship. He of course was probably hurt as well and he deals with his hurt much like I deal with mine thinking that sometimes it is better to just get mad rather then try to sit down and actually deal with the problems that cause that hurt. Which does nothing to actually fix anything.

As all relationships have ups and downs since we are all human, I think that the one quote from yesterdays post kind of relates to this. Pain is inevitable but suffering is optional. For me I take that as yes we are going to feel pain we are going to hurt and sometimes that hurt is going to come from someone that we love. But we have the choice to let it cause us suffering or to fix it and not let it cause us suffering.

Leaving Thomas is not really what I had wanted at all and really not what he wanted either. When we had that commitment ceremony we were both dedicating ourselves to each other through thick and thin, through the good times and the bad. And we both meant it and it is in times like last night that we both know that we love each other. That we both know that there are times when the road will get rough. But it is our love and caring for each other that will guide us through those rough times.

Sometimes I forget that and I tend to want to run away from things I always have been like that. So when I was going through the rough times I felt alone and like he didn't want to be here like things weren't going to get better or that he didn't really want to commit to me and only did it for the sake of doing. I realize now that it was all just the hurt I was feeling and my own emotions and feelings were causing me suffering that I really don't have to go through. had I just opened my mouth and said a few more things then maybe he would have been able to realize my hurt and see how I was thinking without me having to blow up and write him a letter telling him i can't do this anymore.

We both have our differences and little annoying things that we do that the other doesn't like that's normal we are separate people and we feel and think different then each other. Usually though the good times and the good things about each other are enough that those little annoyances are not so big and do not really matter at all.

In the long run we both care deeply and love each other. Even though at times I may want to just strangle him or as I did the other day just walk away and forget we ever knew each other. Love is not really just an emotion that you can turn on and off. it isn't as easy as flipping a switch and turning it off. So even in the midst of hurting we are able to let our love conquer things. And really just communicating can save a whole lot of heartache and suffering.

I really do see and believe that communication is the key to a relationship. And I'm glad that Thomas is strong enough and cares and loves me enough to stick by me even when I am pushing him away. I'm a lucky girl for that but it would have been just as easy for him to take my letter and leave and never look back. Nope he stuck through he was mad though as was I but he love kept us from allowing that hurt to destroy us.

Have you guessed yet that Thomas and I are back together and I am once again wearing our ring. I guess you cant really say that we weren't together we were still in the same house just being mad at each other. I'm really glad though that we were able to talk it through. I'm also very glad that I have a person like Thomas to share my life with. Because even in the midst of us hurting and things never once did I fear that he was going to hurt me physically like I have been before in other relationships. I honestly didn't believe that we would talk it through though but that's because I just thought that he really didn't care and didn't want me that it would be easier on both of us if we just separated. But if that was the case then No amount of communication or anything would have helped. If love isn't there then yeah we wouldn't be together or able to even talk I don't believe.

LOL now I have to go and change all my profiles again......I really need to not act on my emotions as much.

Choices and Quotes

Today I have some quotes that I find helpful given my current situation. I made a choice yesterday that was very hard to make but I believe was well needed. I won't get into a lot of details though as you will probably guess I have decided that my relationship with Thomas is not going anywhere and it is better to let it go at this point then to continue to try to make it go where it isn't meant to go. yeah it is hard and yes it hurts. I guess when you love someone you will always love them. But sometimes the pain of leaving isn't as bad as the hurt you feel when you stay.

Anyway here are a few quotes that I found that I liked and that fit into my life as it stands right now.
I'm not sure who wrote them as I found them on a few websites and some on more then one. They didn't have an author or anything though.

The first two I really like though

"It's not how bad the problem is, but how bad it's hurting the person who has it"

"Relationships are like glass...Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together"

"When the pain of holding on is worse then the pain of letting go, it's time to let go"

"letting go has never been easy. but holding on can be as difficult. Yet strength is measured not by holding on but by letting go"

"Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional"

And the last quote I also really like as well as it just really seems to fit how I felt.

"I didn't leave you because I don't love you anymore. I left you because I realized that your never going to want me like I want you"

I don't know where I'll end up. I am trying to stay civil and remain friends with Thomas. But given I am sure we are both hurting that might be a difficult feat. I do know that I'm also not saying that either one of us did anything wrong or that he doesn't love me or care. I know that he loves me and cares about me just as I do him. But that he can't love me in the way that I feel he should and I guess I probably can't love him the way he thinks that I should love him. And it is worse and not fair to either of us to continue to hurt each other by failing to realize that it is what it is.

moody music day

Sorry to say that today I have nothing really to write anyway. Its one of those days so Ill be sharing some music. I spent most of the day making CD's for myself. I hate people that are fake and nice to your face but going behind your back plotting shit and being twofaced. Anyway here's a little of the music I made for my CD's today.

















Love the name of this long song. That someone isnt me though!!!

Picture day

Well I finally was able to get the picture from fetish con off the camera so I can share it with you. I also went through my pics and found a few that i liked and decided that iIwould share. Some might have been shared already but I just figured I would go ahead and share some of my favorite spanking pics. Ill start of course with the fox pic from fetish con it isn't the greatest quality though LOL.

Fox at fetish con


This second picture is an older picture but one that I never shared before as i am not dressed in the pic but I guess I'm a little more less worried about that and ready to share. I am debating whether I'm ready to allow the front view or not yet LOL anyway enjoy. I know I enjoyed the one and only time that Thomas ever tied me up. Wish he would do it more often.


The next picture is from a video we made at Texas I am receiving the nylon cane in my school girl outfit. I didn't like the nylon cane but I do like the photo.



This pic is also from the nylon cane I dont like this one as much but not sure I shared it before LOL



Now this next picture from a video available at Birchwood Academy. It is a clip from the extended version of stress relief spanking. I love Thomas's face in it for some reason LOL


The next picture is also from a video available at Birchwood Academy. It is from spanking workout and one of my favorites as well.



The next few photos are just random spanking posing or after spanking shots they are just a few of my favorites

A busy weekend and Tuesday

I have a few things to write about from this past weekend as well as yesterday. Ill of course start with Saturday, as I already wrote a little about it. I was able to go to fetishcon with Thomas for a little bit. Which as I said before was quite interesting. I'm still working on trying to get the picture of me with the fox off the camera so hopefully I can figure that out today. Other then that I don't really have much more to say about the convention. it was nice to have a break without the kids and be able to spend some time with Thomas. I got to see alot of things that peaked my interest though as far as bondage and all that. Now I just need to find me someone that can and will tie me up LOL.

On Sunday Thomas headed back to Fetishcon and I stayed at home. Since i didn't have any kids or anything really that hard to do I had made plans with Katia from Not my orginal Vows. We decided to have lunch together as we have been wanting to meet for a little while. it was very nice meeting her and we had a nice  girl talk and lunch. She's a very bubbly and sweet person so it was really nice to meet another person involved in this lifestyle and fellow blogger.

After I returned home from lunch I rested a little since the kids still were not home yet. I was still hurting from Saturday and I knew that I had some cleaning to do and really wanted to get it done before the kids got home. So after I rested a little i pushed myself to get up and get going. Once I got going it wasn't to bad to continue and i got the house completely finished 5 minutes before the kids came home. of course as soon as they walked in the door my house was not spotless anymore. They were at a beach so i found sand in my carpet everywhere. LOL gotta love kids. Anyway I made the kids dinner and spent some time with them before they had to go to bed and things. They told me about their trip and showed me their shells and things and had gotten me some gifts as well. After putting them to bed I got on the computer a little and waited for Thomas to get to home. I was hurting and tired but couldn't sleep I ended up waiting a long time as it was almost 3 in the morning till he came home.

Monday was pretty uneventful though I did get a call from Thomas while he was at work letting me know that we had to figure out a place for our shoot on Tuesday for Birchwood Academy. since the original place was no longer available. Kind of short notice for something but we managed to go with the flow and just figured on doing guerrilla tactics for it and shooting in our house some. Knowing that it wasn't the ideal place but not having much choice. Sometimes I wonder what goes through some peoples head at times. Some reasoning I just cant understand much.

Our shoot on Tuesday was supposed to be with Aiden and possibly another model as well. I was looking forward to shooting with Aiden again though as she is very fun and energetic. Due to unforeseen circumstances though Aiden was unable to make it. Which was a bummer. So it was just me that was able to shoot. We did have Willow coming to help with the camera though and still had the hopes that a second model would be there in the afternoon. That never happened though either. I joked around with Thomas asking if I can postpone as well. LOL

Willow showed up and I scooted the kids next door. I also told the sitter to make sure that the kids didn't wander next door to our house since we had to shoot at our house. The neighbors are cool and know what we were doing and all so they understood what I meant. We got set up and started filming. Though right now I can't even recall what the first scene was about. Okay yeah I do now LOL. It was a scene that Thomas had thought about having started about phrases that get you spanked. I got to pick my phrase and I of course picked whatever, But seeing as how acting is not one of my strong points it took us a little while to get the words whatever said on film. It was a little harder on me as well not to laugh as willow was also there and I have a nervous laugh anyway. I felt weird saying whatever for no apparent reason. But hopefully Thomas can get one good shot from it. He led me to the couch and started the spanking but i was laughing and trying to hide it as he spanked me. He cut the scene in the middle saying we had to start over since I was laughing the entire time. Although Willow said you couldn't see it on the camera Thomas said it was too hard for him not to laugh as he could feel me laughing over his lap. It was funny. I told him I couldn't help it though because his spankings were funny,  We finally got the scene done though with minimum laughing that wouldn't be noticeable on the film

we had alot of fun with things though it was nice having time to chit chat and take our time and not have to be set on such a time restraint with anything. Thomas took the opp to take Willow quickly across his knee a few times though She seemed to like the Lexan over her jeans though LOL. We then got talking and things and i changed into my shorts thinking that we were heading out for some lunch. So we were sitting there talking because I was talking to Thomas about a new hairstyle that I want but he wont let me get. I was begging for purple highlights. the conversation got involved with other things as well and the camera was rolling but Willow and i had no idea until we started talking about penis's and other things and Thomas says maybe I should turn the camera off LOL.

The second video we filmed then was about the purple highlights that I wanted since Thomas said i wasted time pleading my case about it. he grabbed the little wooden paddle he has and proceeded to talk to the camera about a deal he gave me. Hes going to post the video and poll to decide if he will let me get purple highlights in my hair. So anyone that thinks that I would look cute with purple highlights in my hair needs to go to his blog when he has the poll and vote for me to get purple highlights. If i have enough people saying it would look good then I will be allowed to get them. So please vote for purple highlights for Cookie. i will post as soon as I know he has it ready on his blog. During the filming and talking Thomas decides that he will show what I look like with purple highlights. I quickly say that's not the purple highlights I wanted as he takes me across his lap.

We then broke for lunch and Willow Thomas and I headed to taco bell for some lunch. We talked about spanking and such and during the convo Thomas talked about his public spanking adventures and things. Willow had mentioned that their were kids in the store so we were safe. Although admittedly there were not any "kids" present. There was one girl that we assumed was under 18 and Willow finally decided to go and ask her since we were betting that she was or wasn't at least 18. Turns out she was 17. Willow did go right up to her and ask her how old she was. It was funny. As we were leaving though the conversation continued and Thomas gave Willow a quick smack on the jeans. She put her sunglasses on and said not until I get my glasses on then its okay. Of  course Thomas jumped on that and said okay then if it is okay with glasses on and sat on the car and pulled Willow over his knee giving her a quick spanking in the parking lot of Taco bell.

We went home and got things ready for our last shoot. This one was about chores and me not doing them. Or falling asleep on the job. It I felt weird as always though so it took a few trys before we got to the actual filming. LOL . Finally we got it finished and I laid down and feel asleep. LOL. Thomas wrapped things up and we were still waiting for the last model when Willow had to leave. She had spent a good portion of the day there as well. Time flys though when you are having fun so I hadn't even noticed what time it was. I went to check on the kids and see the neighbors though.

I brought back Princess though who had wanted some sexy pictures taken of her and wanted to be tied up as well. Of course i offered Thomas to her if she wanted him to do it for her because I couldn't. So without any kids around and the freedom to take pictures without questions as to what we were all doing in the room together LOL. Thomas tied her up and took a few pictures. As i was looking for the keys for my handcuffs though I did find my adapter for my cell phone memory card that i have been searching for since forever. LOL So now I can get all the pictures off my phone again. I was happy.

The other model never showed up either so I just brought the kids home and made dinner. My bottom was bruised and hurting so I couldn't do anymore myself. It was odd though and i told Thomas that i dont understand what it is that I cant take the same spankings I have before without bruising and things. I told you know it is bad when his hand can hurt me LOL. i am thinking it might be my medicine and the way i have been feeling lately and the lack of conditioning since we really don't get alot of spanking play in anymore unless it is for punishment or filming and they are always right off the bat serious LOL. Anyway i have battle wounds today on my ass and it is a little tender even though I didn't get anything near what I am used to.

I'm not sure when the videos will be available at Birchwood Academy as he has quite alot of content to edit and things and nowhere really to do it at the moment. We decided to go ahead and get another computer that he could use for editing but I know that we cant do that until after the first of September so hopefully he can find a way before that to get them edited and get them in the store and things. But I will keep you informed as they come out. i can't wait to see the film he did with Samantha Grace. I saw her in the fetish con super hero skit and a few other websites that I have seen her in. Anyway that's about all I have for today. Ill write more about each scene and the fun we had making them as the videos come available as well.

Fetishcon 2010

I was able to go with Thomas yesterday on a day pass to fetishcon. It was a very different experience to say the least. They had all kinds of different fetishes around. I went dressed in my school girl outfit although I felt really self conscious as it is fitting me anymore like before. So I had to make do with what I had and didn't like it as much. Thomas wore his school suit and carried around his aluminum paddle which some people stopped him to take a picture. There was a bondage fox being lead around on a leash so i told Thomas that I wanted a picture with him. After we took the picture though we realized that it didn't go to the memory card and we will have to try to get it off the actual camera. So once things settle with all that's going on and I can get Thomas to work on getting me that photo I will share it with you.

I went to one of the topic discussions called predicament bondage. I have a real fascination with bondage as everyone who reads this blog knows so I wanted to see it. it was quite interesting as the instructor had two girls hog tied one on each side of the room and told them that the only way to get out of the bondage would be to help each other. So they scurried themselves across the room and meet in the middle while everyone watched as they struggled to get to each other and free each other. it was a lot more difficult then one would think at first. But it was interesting to watch. I didn't stay through the whole thing the other bondage that he had started with was with a model that he tied up and hung a vibrator from an arch above her giving her the option to find a way to get to it and get herself off. it was pretty interesting watching but as much as I love bondage I was really wishing that I would get tied up! Not so much that day but just in general.

Everywhere you look there was girls tied up or walking around scantily clothed or in fetish gear. There were alot of interesting things to see there. It was quite interesting to say the least. Alot of fetish models and photographers around.

My health lately though is still giving me grief sometimes and walking around took its toll on me by the end of the day I was in a whole lot of pain and I ended up leaving around 6 PM. Earlier that day when Thomas and i were sitting outside the entrance to the trade show on some lounge couches taking a break there was a young lady nearby that asked Thomas and i what kind of convention it was. Thomas's answer was if you had to ask then you wouldn't want to know. LOL. She laughed and mentioned that she was there to look at the hotel with her parents in soon to be in laws for her upcoming wedding. Just as she said that a guy dressed in a thong with a rope tied around his balls walks out and down the hotels hallway. She laughed and said I need to warn my husband about this. She had a really good humor about it though. She had mentioned that she wanted to go in a see what was going on. LOL

I went home though and had to rest and take a pain pill as I almost couldn't walk anymore from the pain. I am going to call my doctor back and try to get another appointment soon and tell them that they need to figure out what is wrong and fix it for good. I feel bad when a simple thing like walking around a convention hurts so bad that I cant do things that I like to do anymore and my weight keeps rising. Something is wrong and I am sick and tired of literally being sick and tired.

50% off sale and a few other things

I'm a little behind in updating the blog sorry bout that. Lots going on but I have a few things to catch you up

I'll start with a great sale going on right now by Pmproductx formly known as Paddle Masters products. Lee sent me an email on the first letting me know that for 10 days only (starting August 3rd) he is having a 50% off sale on all his current inventory. As you all know I am a big fan of his products and think that this is a great deal. Check out his website and get yours now. No more excuses for waiting and remember that you only have 10 days!!! actually since this post is late there isn't that many days any more now you are down to just a week left. So hurry up and get on over to Pmproductx
 
Our neighbors have taken both our kids to a vacation with them so we are kid less till Sunday afternoon. Which gives me the opp to go to fetishcon with Thomas tomorrow. I'm excited though and look forward to a day of fun with other kinksters. I wish that I would have just gone ahead and got my ticket earlier and hoped to find a sitter though but oh well Im sure that I will still enjoy it on a day pass as well. If i would have known sooner i would have tried to have sold myself a little for spanking shoots or something. You never know what will happen though so maybe I will get lucky. Being an amateur spanking model though does have some fun perks and ill be happy to represent Birchwood Academy if nothing else.
 
Ill be heading out for a girls night out on the 14th with our neighbors and Ill be doing a photo shoot with one for a friend of hers. She said if any of the photos come out really good she will post them on my site to share. She has a very Dom like personality though and we have talked about going to a local club with me as her submissive for the night. We also have talked some about doing a video where she is spanking me though nothing has been determined yet what we have planned. I cant wait till go out with her though as i think it will be alot of fun and shes a really sweet and fun person to be around.
 
On the 14th though we are not going to a club. Well not exactly a club but more like a private party. I have a fascination with bikers and they have been raised around bikers all their lives and know quite a few. In fact we are attending a private party held by local bikers. Should be alot of fun. I'm sure ill have alot to write about. I am hoping to get a ride on a bike that night as I love it and have only gotten the chance a few times and it has been a long time since I have.
 
Well I am off to bed for tonight I have to wake up and pick Thomas up from fetishcon later and I'm already fighting sleep to stay up. I rarely stay up past 1030 and it is almost midnight. I hope I hear the phone when he calls.

Sorry

I could write a few things but im really not in the mood lately. I have'nt been sleeping much and im trying to make a very difficult choice so today im just gonna share some music again. it helps me sometimes.