The bigger picture

Recently a comment on a video on spankingtube has made me think and provided for a pretty long discussion between me and the commenter. he was civil and not rude so it wasn't a comment that I would consider negative or anything that I would just chalk up to ignorance and ignore. He actually did bring up a good point and when I look at it I can understand what he is saying as well. So I decided that it would make a good topic for the blog as well.


To readers of this blog and many other blogs things are not always what they seem I suppose. I know I have said it before but it is worth saying again. Sometimes there is a bigger picture that just can not be conveyed in a spanking related blog and the pictures you get from this small glimpse in our lives is not the whole picture at all. There is a whole lot more that goes on behind the scenes for bloggers, spanking models, or even just everyday bloggers etc. etc.


That being said I guess I should tell you what the comment was. It was an opinion of the commenter that my self spanking and boredom was sad because living with a dominant male he should be doing more to meet my needs and that I seemed really unhappy. He also stated that I shouldn't have to make self spanking videos for store content just to have something to sell when I have admitted that it is not something I enjoy that much it was his opinion that Thomas should be providing me all of my spanking and store needs. I think that is what he meant. And while I will say that I have to agree with some of that I don't agree with the me being unhappy or all of it. Yes I get unhappy at times about certain situations and things in my life, (who doesn't life is not always easy) but overall I am not unhappy or living an unfilled dreary life.



Yes, Thomas probably could be more dominant and our spanking and BDSM lifestyle could use alot more spice now and then but overall our relationship is awesome and he gives me so much more then I can ask for in so many ways. That's where the bigger picture comes in.



I am more then just a spanko, I am more then just the girl that Thomas lives with, I am more then just a spanking blogger and what not. I am a mother, I am a co worker, I am a friend, I am a neighbor, I am a sister, i am a daughter, I am a lover, I am a submissive, I am lots and lots of different things. And all these things make up my daily life and the spanking side of it and what I write in my blog or do for videos is just a very small part of all those things that make up my life.

Alot of readers have been reading my blog and following my spanking side of life for the last almost four years now. They have seen the good times and they also see the bad times. And we all know that we have to take the good with the bad in all areas of life.


Before I meet Thomas we both led very different lives. Things were alot easier as far as getting the chance to play and things. We actually got alot more time together even though I lived two hours away and sometimes yes I miss that and I am sure he does as well. But we both decided to merge our lives together and become a family. This merging though required us both to make many sacrifices and more so on him then I. But it also provided us with many other things and we gained so much more then we lost at least that is how I feel and I would have to guess that he does as well or he wouldn't have bothered. If Thomas didn't really love me and care for me why do you think he would stay and give up what he had to give up for us? I don't know very many man that even if they do love you would change their whole life just to be with you.



Thomas went from being a single man with very few bills and responsibilities to being the main provider for a family of 5, He went from not having any kids to becoming a father and taking care of three kids that are not his by blood. And anyone that has blended families or teenagers in general know that is not a very smooth easy going task at times. Many times he could have just said fuck it and left hell there were times before when I tried to push him away and made it difficult myself. But Thomas stays, he provides, he loves and he cares even though he gets frustrated and I am sure situations in our life leave him with unhappy feelings as well.



Relationships are more then just what you can physically give the other person. Beyond the sexual, spanking, BDSM or fun side of things a whole lot more goes into living together and being a family.




He said that it was sad that I was so unhappy and had to do what I was doing when I live with a spanker and a man that is always looking for other spankos. But I really don't think or feel that anyone has to feel sad or bad for me because I don't feel that way myself. And I am far from neglected, abused and unloved or uncared for. I am quite the opposite in the areas where it matters the most. My emotional well being and overall general well being is cared for greatly and lovingly. Now if only I could get my spanking and sexual needs meet daily I would have the perfect life LOL. Just kidding. I don't believe that there is a perfect life we all are human, we all make mistakes and everything isn't the perfect way we would like it to be all the time. And yes since I am human I will get frustrated and I will have my own moments of weakness and unhappy feelings and want to give up and all that jazz and emotions that we all go through on this journey called life. But what I do have is a wonderful man that will stand beside me, A man that loves me, A man that cares for me, and a man that will help lead me through all the good times and the bad times. What more could anyone really ask for?



here's a quote I found that I liked and seems to fit though I don't know who wrote it.
"prehaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we may see life with a clearer view again"