Sorry I haven't written in a few days. Things get really hectic around here on the weekends since that is when I work the most. I still have a few emails I have to answer as well. I just woke up though and wanted to get a blog post done so I can share a few things. On Thursday Katia came and picked me up and we headed to Brandon for lunch before we met with Thomas for some playtime. I always love spending girl time with her. We have alot of fun and it is a nice break while the kids are in school. Katia is a great person and I am glad to have her as a friend.

I had brought with me a new set from Cane-iac we just got. Well actually Thomas just got from me for Christmas. It is the solid maple wooden paddle set. pictured here.

Thomas's store is a school themed store as we all know. So that set would go well for alot of his videos when he gets the series running again. Since we had gotten it though no one was able to try them out yet and i love trying out new things especially from cane-iac LOL.

Once we picked Thomas up the giggles and playfulness that Katia and I always have never ends you know. So as soon as he got in the car on the way to where we were going to play Katia was started teasing him. It was a simple thing though LOL. She had her windows cracked a little and Thomas told her to roll the window up when he got in the car. She simply told him to say please but Thomas is very very stubborn and refused so she decided to roll it further down and to place the child safety lock on as well. So he rode all with the windows down all the way there. As soon as we got to our play spot and we all got out of the car he grabbed Katia and pinned her to the car swatting her bottom a few times. The funny thing was that there were men working nearby and if they didn't get a glimpse of the spanking it is almost certain that they heard it. LOL

Anyway we all played for a little while with the paddles. It was fun trying them out for play but I don't think I would want them used for anything else LOL. They really pack a good wallop. My bottom is not as conditioned as it once was since I rarely get alot of chances to get spanked anymore. So it wasn't to long after that the paddle broke my skin and Thomas let us know I was a little bummed because we hadn't been playing long and I was so having a great time and so needed the play. He had to stop though and clean the new paddle and tend to my bottom as well. It was just a small spot that broke through but none the less you really don't want blood around when you are playing especially with a new paddle and more then one person. As Thomas was cleaning it though and I got prepared to end our play Katia decided that she was not done playing either and wanted me to still play so she mentioned to Thomas that my thighs were okay. I was like gee thanks Katia. Thomas of course loved that idea and made us both get back into position and continued though only spanking our thighs this time. Ouch a paddle on the thighs!!! I quickly looked at Katia and was like what the hell were you thinking girl. LOL It was fun though and Thomas gave both of us the same so she got the thighs as well for her efforts LOL.

Anyway his time was ending and he had to get back to work. So we all headed to his work. But Katia was not done with the window thing yet. She was determined to make him say please. However he is very very stubborn and still refused. I even one time turned around and said say please please because I was cold. He didn't though and soon got mad instead of playful. So she rolled the window up and he went to work. That night though when she picked him up for work she got a good dose of the hairbrush from what I heard. When he got home he told me that I can expect mine soon for my part in it. I was like hey wait I was an innocent bystander. I am lucky though as I had to go to work that night as well and his chances for getting me are really slim. Now by the time he gets a chance I am sure he will have long forgotten it by then. LOL.

I am planning my first spanking party and have asked Katia to help me. Thomas typically does not like to celebrate his birthday and never tells anyone when it is. But I asked him if I held a party in the form of a spanking party would that be okay and he agreed. I of course cant have it on his actual birthday because of timing but I planned it for pretty close and it will be a Birthday spanking party LOL. I have not gotten all the details yet about where and when and all that. But I did contact some of our spanko friends to get an idea who and how many might be able to make it. Its in May though so I have a little bit of time to plan and things. Should be pretty interesting. If all goes well I might just keep that up every year. I have to order a butt cake pan though for his cake. Whats a spanking birthday party without a butt cake LOL. I think I am going to make the cake myself unless I can find a cheap place that does ass cakes but I am pretty certain it wouldn't be at our local grocery stores.

Tampa Tanners first meet and greet private after party Feburary 26th 2011

As I already mentioned Tampa Tanners very first meet and greet was on Saturday. we had a great turnout and now that I really looked at the numbers it was more around the lines of 15 rather then 20 but still a great turnout for it being our very first event.

We all enjoyed some really friendly conversation and i really enjoyed meeting new people and getting the chance to sit and converse about spankings and other kink related things.

Since Todd and Suzy from American Spanking Society were coming from two hours away and we all had wanted to get together for some spanking related play for awhile now it made sense for us to rent out the hotel we will be using for our parties for the night and all spend it together. Todd, Suzy and jean rented out a room and Katia Thomas and I rented out adjoining rooms which came in really handy. We just opened the adjoining rooms door and we all socialized for most of the night. Of course when you have that many spankos together there is no way that the socializing didn't involve spanking LOL.

At the meet and greet Todd and Suzy had meet Sissy whom I think they knew before hand but I am not sure. We also all met a newbie to the scene a girl named Shy. She is a young one only 18 and we decided to invite her to the after party for a little while so she can get an idea of what a spanking party is in a smaller setting with people that I know and trust that wouldn't take advantage of her young newbie status. The 8 of spent the time together playing spankopoly. For those that have never heard of it go to American Spanking Society Spankopoly post for more information. It was created by Todd and Suzy and has been a great blast at many spanking parties I have attended.



There was a whole lot of spankings going on for the game and we all had a blast playing it. Cane-iac has made special paddles and a strap for the game and of course those were used as well as the hand and a fire hose small brush and a souvenir "Who's your Daddy" paddle. The implement that was used if a spanking was earned in the game was determined by a roll of the dice. 1 being the strap, 2 the small brush, 3 the fire hose, 4 the spankopoly paddle and 5 being the who's your daddy paddle and 6 was the hand. Since there were two dice the other dice was used to determine how the spanking would occur with 1-2 being over the jeans, 3-4 being on the panties and 5-6 being on the bare. There were a whole lot of 4's being rolled with 5-6's meaning a whole lot of the spankopoly paddle on bare bottoms.

Here is a nice collage that Todd made with some of those spankings.


And here a few shots of me getting my dues as well as a few of the other players.









There was a time when katia got a turn to be spanked and I think the number was pretty high but I believe the implement was a hand. We teased about it being patty cake for Thomas to spank with his hand so I sat in front of her and played patty cake with her. here is a two pictures of that. Todd and Suzy took a few more pictures but they appeared darker and you really couldn't see us playing.





After the game Shy had to leave so Thomas took her home. Katia Suzy and i went to get some snacks at that time as well and had a blast talking and getting the snacks. When we returned Sissy was getting her spankings from Thomas and had already gotten hers from Todd. Todd also took that time to make good on his football bets with Katia and I. during the football season we always join Todd and Suzy's league for fantasy football. Both Katia and I lost when playing Todd so he got to give both of us the spanking of his choice. Here's a few pics from that spanking. I think I asked for the donkey hide paddle just to see what it felt like. It is not a very friendly paddle that is for sure LOL.





After those spankings were done I think it was then that we all took a short break and ordered some pizza. I was hoping for domino's but we had to pick pizza hut whom I dislike and have yet to have an order from them be right. We ordered ham and pineapple but we were given ham and pepperoni instead. Not really a tasty combination to me but I was hungry so I ate a piece. we all talked some more and it was getting close to time for me to go to work. I requested the day off though three weeks prior but wasn't able to get it off and had to work 12-7 that night. It is a good thing my adrenaline was pumping as I had been awake since around 7 Friday morning.

We still had some time for play and it was decided that the four bottoms that were left at the party Jean, Katia Suzy and I would lie across the bed side by side with our bottoms bare as Thomas and todd took turns trying out each and every implement in their toy bags. Which between the two of them is enormous LOL. Both of them have a very large assortment of spanking tools and things. I ended up being on the end which meant that when they switched implements I got a double dose. I got the last spank and the first when they went down the line. LOL. It was a whole lot of fun. Thomas saved the aluminum paddle for last. it was nice and cold since he always keeps it in the fridge at parties. Only three of us were able to take the swats though so Suzy took the extra one since she loves that paddle so much. Thomas then used the paddle to cool down our backsides. How nice was that LOL.







This is where I had to get ready for work and head out. I think there was some more spankings going on after I left but I couldn't be there for the fun. Which really sucked. I went to work and worked the night until 7 although I got off at 6 I stuck around to get my paycheck at 7 when the manager got there since Thomas and katia were filming........

When I finally got back to the hotel after work Katia and Tomas were finishing up their video and Thomas was tending to Katia's bottom. She had a particular painful session caning and she had agreed to let Thomas record it for Birchwood Academy. After I changed and was ready to relax it was my turn.

I have had a few issues with remembering to take my medicine and for the last few months I really haven't taken it like I should. So Thomas and I decided to give me a reminder about that and also record it for our stores. This week though quite a few spanking opps happened. On Thursday we recorded a special promo video for our back to school bash party. Friday I did a pretty long and hard self paddling video and then Saturday we played alot for the after party. my bottom was feeling it that morning and I was in for a serious wedding gift paddling. The fact that I was already sore didn't stop Thomas for laying it on me though. It was fast hard and furious and it took me by surprise. Afterwards my bottom was burning. Here's a preview clip of that video that is now available on my Cookie Crawford clips and Cookie Jarstore.



Here's a few screen shots as well.


















After both of us were finished with our punishments we talked a little and Katia was very brave and wanted to get a spanking out of the way that she had agreed to take for a friend of hers. her bottom was completely sore though and I felt for her. I even stayed on the bed and held her hand through it. She took 100 with the bath brush so that a friend of hers could get a lesser sentence. That's a real friendship there. Her bottom had just went through a 200 some stroke caning and was really really sore but yet she still went through with the bath brush spanking and agreed to record it for the stores in hopes that it would make a few dollars to help support Tampa Tanners since all proceeds from my two stores will be going to benefit Tampa Tanners. Here's a preview of that clip as well.



After the 100 with the bath brush was finished Katia and I were laying there talking with Thomas as the camera stilled rolled. We ended up in a playful wrestling/spanking match though and that was recorded as well. it was fun at that point even though both of us had sore bottoms and poor Katia was still bared across his lap. I have included both versions of the video the unedited one with the play at the end and one with just the 100 with the bathbrush. Here's some screenshots of that as well.















Afterwards we decided to check and see of Todd Suzy and jean were awake and wanted to go down and get the free hotel breakfast with us. Of course I am sure that the smacking coming from our room probably woke them up before hand anyway. but they were awake and we all headed down to breakfast together. It was a pretty decent breakfast as well. Once we all had our fill we headed back upstairs. I was quite surprised I was still functioning and ready to play some more. We had until 1 to check out so there was still some spanking fun to be had. Well kind of LOL. Katia and i were pretty well done and well spanked and sore. But that didn't stop her from messing with Thomas. We both started out trying to tag team him and get him but I quickly grew tired and at one point had gotten elbowed in the cheek during the wrestling. But she kept going and Thomas and her were having a very serious and funny as hell knock out drag down wrestling match. They were all over the room. I was laughing and resting but I wished I had turned the camera on it was quite a match. They both fought hard and were both sweating and tired in the end of it. I think once he even managed to wrestle her into the bathtub and turned the shower on her. It was alot of fun.

Since three of us Suzy's Spanking Union girls were at the party and so was the new S.S.U. paddle we had to get our pictures taken with it. Every new paddle needs a picture with a nice bottom behind it LOL. here are those pics as well.





Suzy also blogged and has some more pictures with the SSU paddle check out her post at the Suzy's Spanking Union blogspot.

After the pictures and things we all just sat and talked. The adrenaline was quickly wearing off and i was getting rather tired so around 12 we decided to say our goodbyes and Katia Thomas and i left. I went home and crashed and slept until 5:30 before I had to get up again and go to work again. I was really really tired and by Monday morning the post party drop was kicking in. But the weekend was certainly a blast and we all look forward to the first official Tampa Tanners party in March. We hope to see you there as well.

Compilation video

I recently made a few videos from some series of videos available on the stores. The one that I uploaded today I also made a short promo to share. I am hoping to soon also use Thomas's idea for the just the action videos where the only part is the straight spanking without the talking or other things. Not sure what I will call it or when I will be able to do that though. But here's the preview for you to enjoy. All the punishments are also available separate on the store or all in one in the compilation video which is a whole lot longer. The punishment one is about 43 minutes long all together. that's a whole lot of spanking going on LOL.

The bigger picture

Recently a comment on a video on spankingtube has made me think and provided for a pretty long discussion between me and the commenter. he was civil and not rude so it wasn't a comment that I would consider negative or anything that I would just chalk up to ignorance and ignore. He actually did bring up a good point and when I look at it I can understand what he is saying as well. So I decided that it would make a good topic for the blog as well.


To readers of this blog and many other blogs things are not always what they seem I suppose. I know I have said it before but it is worth saying again. Sometimes there is a bigger picture that just can not be conveyed in a spanking related blog and the pictures you get from this small glimpse in our lives is not the whole picture at all. There is a whole lot more that goes on behind the scenes for bloggers, spanking models, or even just everyday bloggers etc. etc.


That being said I guess I should tell you what the comment was. It was an opinion of the commenter that my self spanking and boredom was sad because living with a dominant male he should be doing more to meet my needs and that I seemed really unhappy. He also stated that I shouldn't have to make self spanking videos for store content just to have something to sell when I have admitted that it is not something I enjoy that much it was his opinion that Thomas should be providing me all of my spanking and store needs. I think that is what he meant. And while I will say that I have to agree with some of that I don't agree with the me being unhappy or all of it. Yes I get unhappy at times about certain situations and things in my life, (who doesn't life is not always easy) but overall I am not unhappy or living an unfilled dreary life.



Yes, Thomas probably could be more dominant and our spanking and BDSM lifestyle could use alot more spice now and then but overall our relationship is awesome and he gives me so much more then I can ask for in so many ways. That's where the bigger picture comes in.



I am more then just a spanko, I am more then just the girl that Thomas lives with, I am more then just a spanking blogger and what not. I am a mother, I am a co worker, I am a friend, I am a neighbor, I am a sister, i am a daughter, I am a lover, I am a submissive, I am lots and lots of different things. And all these things make up my daily life and the spanking side of it and what I write in my blog or do for videos is just a very small part of all those things that make up my life.

Alot of readers have been reading my blog and following my spanking side of life for the last almost four years now. They have seen the good times and they also see the bad times. And we all know that we have to take the good with the bad in all areas of life.


Before I meet Thomas we both led very different lives. Things were alot easier as far as getting the chance to play and things. We actually got alot more time together even though I lived two hours away and sometimes yes I miss that and I am sure he does as well. But we both decided to merge our lives together and become a family. This merging though required us both to make many sacrifices and more so on him then I. But it also provided us with many other things and we gained so much more then we lost at least that is how I feel and I would have to guess that he does as well or he wouldn't have bothered. If Thomas didn't really love me and care for me why do you think he would stay and give up what he had to give up for us? I don't know very many man that even if they do love you would change their whole life just to be with you.



Thomas went from being a single man with very few bills and responsibilities to being the main provider for a family of 5, He went from not having any kids to becoming a father and taking care of three kids that are not his by blood. And anyone that has blended families or teenagers in general know that is not a very smooth easy going task at times. Many times he could have just said fuck it and left hell there were times before when I tried to push him away and made it difficult myself. But Thomas stays, he provides, he loves and he cares even though he gets frustrated and I am sure situations in our life leave him with unhappy feelings as well.



Relationships are more then just what you can physically give the other person. Beyond the sexual, spanking, BDSM or fun side of things a whole lot more goes into living together and being a family.




He said that it was sad that I was so unhappy and had to do what I was doing when I live with a spanker and a man that is always looking for other spankos. But I really don't think or feel that anyone has to feel sad or bad for me because I don't feel that way myself. And I am far from neglected, abused and unloved or uncared for. I am quite the opposite in the areas where it matters the most. My emotional well being and overall general well being is cared for greatly and lovingly. Now if only I could get my spanking and sexual needs meet daily I would have the perfect life LOL. Just kidding. I don't believe that there is a perfect life we all are human, we all make mistakes and everything isn't the perfect way we would like it to be all the time. And yes since I am human I will get frustrated and I will have my own moments of weakness and unhappy feelings and want to give up and all that jazz and emotions that we all go through on this journey called life. But what I do have is a wonderful man that will stand beside me, A man that loves me, A man that cares for me, and a man that will help lead me through all the good times and the bad times. What more could anyone really ask for?



here's a quote I found that I liked and seems to fit though I don't know who wrote it.
"prehaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we may see life with a clearer view again"

A creative day LOL

today I spent alot of the day thinking about some things that were going through in my head. Sometimes when I don't get play very often my mind gets to wondering and I come up with some vivid scenes LOL. I was writing some of them down today but have not gotten it all done yet. I will probably take it to work with me tonight in case we are slow like we have been and I can jot down some ideas I get.

I also spent some time working on editing and making videos. I made a few compilation videos to put on the store and spent some time with that. In between waiting for movie maker to save and uploading and things I also played around with a photo editor I found online. I took the picture of bondage that included my naked front and played around with it and felt comfortable enough after some heavy editing to go ahead and share it on my blog. LOL If you have noticed I also started putting my name on my photos. Not that it will completely help but I am hoping that will stop people from stealing them and using them elsewhere. I recently came across a place that had a few of my pics uploaded and I never knew and we have been told that there are pics of us before in places we didn't allow. We have also found some of our videos being used where we didn't authorize so now all my videos and pictures will also have my name somewhere on the pic.

Well enjoy the pics and things and have a great day I am going to go back to thinking and playing these hot scenes over and over in my head like I have been. I really think I need a good spanking session!!!!!

A Self Paddling for Cookie

Today I was bored and needed content for the store. I have been also missing spanking and since it has been awhile since I have had one I really could use a real good paddling LOL. Anyway I decided to do a self paddling video with my Sweet cheeks paddle and my Cookie paddle. Self Spanking does not even come close to a good spanking from a spanker but it does provide a nice warm glow for a little while and does make for some cute pictures afterwards LOL. Here's a few screen shots from the video I did today that is now available at Cookie Crawford's clipsand The Cookie Jar spanking library studiostore.














Last night I was a little bit playful and bothering Thomas hoping for a little play. I got a few cane strokes before we realized our son in the next room was still awake and our walls are thin. we were using a quieter implement the cane but that didn't help much. we had to put that aside and go for some sexual play that we could make quieter LOL. Not that I minded as the cane is not one of my favorite things but when I am in that playful of a mood I enjoy it and welcome it. After we played and my need was satisfied I quickly fell asleep and slept soundly. I didn't even hear Thomas get into bed last night. LOL.

Being that Thomas works during the day and I at night our free time is very very limited even if we could find a sitter. Katia and I are trying to plan a day next week that we could meet with thomas at lunch for some playtime. Which we both really could use. She is a very fun person to be around and I enjoy our time together either as a girls day out or with Thomas having spanking play or even other spankers as it was with her that I meet with Niko as well. We so need to set up another playtime with Niko as well. LOL But I am also looking for spankos in the Tampa area that would be available during the day to shoot some videos with or just for some spanking play. The Holidays made it hectic and the new job as well but things are starting to settle down and the kids are finally back to school leaving me a bored housewife during the day. LOL. You know what kind of trouble I can find alone all day!!!